So today is day two of taking one capsule of EMP. I think I've had a little bit less anxiety today. Today, it's kind of sunny out, or at least it was. So I decided to take a Kia Soul for a test drive. Because right now I have a 1992 Toyota Corolla. And that's definitely not going to get me to California. So I'm not sure if I'll be driving a new vehicle, driving my Corolla, taking an airplane or a train. Right now my car has a broken driver's side, outside door handle. So I either have to leave the car open a crack, or climb in the passenger side Batman style. And I don't mind leaving an open a crack. But if it's a hill, then the door actually stays open too far. So I have to lock it, I have to close it. And once I click it, it's, it's in the passenger door for me. And I backed up a few boxes today. As I'm hoping to get everything of my staff my personal stuff into my second bedroom. And I still haven't officially quit my job. But I'll have to deal with that in the next couple of days. Because it's official, I am going to go to California. And after tomorrow and already even could be by today, but I'll say for sure January 1, it'll have been the longest that I've managed to stay out of the psych ward, since I started having relapses. So I had three so called relapses. And it'd be the longest I've managed to not have a relapse. And part of it could be because of this self dialog stuff. I was watching some TED talks today. And one of them. It wasn't particularly interesting, somebody's talking about their experience of bipolar disorder. But one thing she said was having somebody to talk to about it. And and in this process, I at least have myself to talk to you about it. And then I watched another TED talk that says that the best predictor of happiness and, and longevity and things like that. His relationships are having satisfying and meaningful relationships. I actually think that it might be owning a bad day. I just got mine hooked up today, it was a Christmas present. And I haven't tried it yet. I'm a little bit afraid of the cold water, it'll be like Yikes. But I'm actually thinking that they're gonna have to rewrite their 75 year study and say that the actual best predictor of happiness is having a bad day, which is a bump sprayer that goes on your toilet. But second, would definitely be relationships. And I have some really good relationships in my life. Though I would love to be able to have more. Maybe it's not even just relationships, but relating because I did the best when I was living in community mental health community. And then after that I was working in a medical office and there was just a lot of people coming in a lot of relating even though I didn't have super close long term friendships with people there that I did a lot of relating. I was thinking about gestures again today because I was thinking about how even something as simple as letting somebody in in traffic and then they give a wave. It's a gesture. It's a stranger giving a gesture. But in that moment, both people are on the same page. Both people are related. There's this giving and receiving. So one person's giving the gesture the other person's receiving the gesture. And in that moment in that give and receive It's just one relationship is just one thing. It's one consciousness, it's to suppose that individual consciousnesses meeting in this relationship in that both understand what that means. And I think that is sort of the key to oneness, in a way. Because if I'm having a conversation with somebody, and we're talking back and forth and say we're just arguing about opinions, it's two separate things. There's no actual communication there. But the true communication happens when one person is giving the other receiving and both actually know what it means. And that's when to sort of become one. And I think the ability to do that is what's really powerful. And I think that's part of those human dimensions, those inner human dimensions. And it's