In this episode I explain my crazy moment imagining the podcast host is talking to me. Maybe with her 25 fans on castaway I am her only male British non patriotic fan. I believe in the American freedom philosophy but I believe there is none. No one will own their own home, never be able to retire. Live fast die young used to be my motto. Now just putting myself in a simulation where I can stop being an addict to alcohol, cigarettes, coffee, ketamine n weed. Not all together but on some crazy rotation. Once a week I smoke weed to stop me smoking booze. But the next day off which could be days after my first day off I'm out so I get booze. I'm drunk so I'll buy ket. I chain smoke cigarettes. I need to change my lifestyle and mot die this slow lonely way.