Energetic Entitlement part 2→ feeling it, not just knowing ityou can feel anything for 90 seconds. let the body map it out. this work uses imagination and intuition as faculties, not as decoration. trust them even if you are not sure what you are feeling for yet. this is yours to explore.→ relational discord as an open woundlike a burnt hand. you cannot stop going back to it. it pulls focus even outside the moments of actual conflict. programming around being useful, valuable, productive can prioritise this wound above everything else, including your own work.→ the twisted webdiscomfort with saying no. anticipating others' negative feelings to avoid feeling them yourself. resentment for giving when you did not want to. none of it draws clean energy. it is all crisscrossed and entangled, which is why relationships can feel so complicated to maintain.→ something diverted the life forcebefore you eat, you must focus on this first. before you rest, you must do this. learning as a child that diverting your portion would earn love, connection, or safety. learned so early it does not register as a choice. that is how insidious the leak can be.→ limerence and nostalgiathe good old days. childhood freedom. it can be beautiful and it can also be heavy. ask whether the energetic cost of the nostalgia tailspin is worth the return. sometimes, like remembering your children running to you at daycare, it absolutely is.→ two softwares at onceholding onto a past version of life while trying to run current experience through it. an old iOS trying to stay compatible with what is actually happening now. that double-running depletes energy whether or not you notice it happening.→ the fridge, againleftovers kept long past anyone should eat them, out of principle, even knowing they will be thrown out tomorrow. a slow reaction time made physical. ask what fragment of architecture you are keeping the same way. not functional. just touched twice for no reason.→ overgiving in conversationlingering. sharing information no one asked for. listening far past your actual capacity. these are telltale signs of a pattern underneath, not character flaws.→ overflow versus the woundsome leaks feel like kindness, loyalty, depth, intimacy. learn to tell the difference between giving from overflow and giving from the wound, the fracture, the not-enough self-concept. when you sort that out you do not give less. you give differently. and it makes sense.╼☩╾for a specific few:• ⧼the one whose relational discord has been hijacking focus even outside the actual conflict, 7:47 names it⧽────────0:00 - leaky energy, going deeper than the last part0:58 - explaining slowly and repeating to give feeling not just cognition2:11 - you can feel anything for 90 seconds, the body maps it3:24 - using intuition and imagination as faculties to develop and trust4:52 - self-concept as your centre point, building self-trust6:19 - you have the choice, blind spots in different life areas7:47 - relational discord as an open wound, like a burnt hand9:15 - feeling for others, emotional translation, anticipating needs10:42 - the twisted knotted web of energy expenditure11:55 - repressing natural instincts, looking at the story behind the drain13:08 - self-concept bruised, something diverted the essential life force14:21 - diverting energy as kids for love and safety, insidious and unaware15:20 - not blaming the structures right now, bringing energy home first16:33 - limerence and nostalgia as a leak, the good old days17:46 - energy cost of the nostalgia tailspin, the kids at daycare example18:59 - dragging the past forward, running two softwares at once20:12 - the fridge and leftovers, hoarding, slow reaction time21:25 - how long it takes you to let go, disengagement speed as a metaphor22:38 - overgiving in conversations, lingering, dumping and overprocessing23:37 - giving from the overflow and giving from the wound────────