I was there in New Jersey for almost six months and the stay and everything has been taken care of by my sponsor. At this point in time, I had to thank my sponsor and his friend and they have taken care of me very well.

After three months, I almost got an offer to join one of the companies over there however they did not mention any timeline for the joining.

This is the period where the transformation was happening in my mind like still how long I have to work as an employee and is there any benefit staying out of the family for a certain period.

There were lots of questions which I have not got any answer. For example, If I calculate my paycheck and the expenses in the US for a family which is of nowhere I am going to save anything. But there are other benefits for my family members (like the new landscape, places to visit, the lifestyle and other cosmetic things which any NRI will think that would be the great offer), for me, it’s the same normal, routine life.

Whereas in India, I have the freedom of thoughts and the freedom of living and the worst-case scenario, I can live my life in my own way. This can not be in the NRI’s case. If you are living in the US, that too as an employee, there are so many things to consider-reconsider, think-rethink, wired-rewired things will continuously happen.

Why I was thinking like this because this is not the right time to be landed over in the US having such a great experience in my career. I will get very normal remuneration here in the US compared to India and that too I have to share some percentage with my sponsor for H1B.

You can question me here why don’t you think before going over there. Obviously, I had given a thought on this part, however, to be honest, and to be frank…these things were at the least priority when I have got the stamping for an H1B visa in my passport!

Now I have got relieved of something from getting the job offer as I have got the confirmation from my employer saying the joining date will be intimated soon. However, still was attending a lot of interviews.

Also, my feeling and question of why I have to be an employee as always’ was increasing day by day. I thought of writing down all the desires what I wanted to be in life.

I couldn’t write any list and it’s not so easy to write the list too. Meanwhile, I have got my driving license, my bank account got opened and now am ready for the same old race which anyone coming from India or any other countries to the US.

I hated this kind of life. I can not live life like this and I can not end my life like this. I strongly believe that I am not born to live like a slave be it in India or in the US. Wherever I am, I am going to be the boss. I am born to give jobs to others. I have a lot of potentials to live like an employer and I wanted to be an entrepreneur!

I have arrived at this point after three months. Yes, I would like to do business. I don’t know what to do. However, I have to do something on my own.

How to do that?

This was the point I got stuck into.

Moreover, I hate this kind of mentality, the attitude of a person, and also I hate the dependency at this age. I know what I am doing right now. That’s all I was thinking.

But, recently he’s not well and I planned to meet him just for the sake of asking how’s the health.

I didn’t have his residential address and I was just texting him to get the same.

He didn’t reply to my email or my text but I have got a reply from his wife (Sister-in-Law).

“He doesn’t want to see you and he’s not interested to have any kind of discussion with you”