If you grew up as a millennial woman, you probably remember the era of low-rise jeans, bodycon dresses, and crash diets that promised to help you lose 30 lbs in 30 days. But what happened if you weren't quite "plus size" — and weren't quite "straight size" either? You fell through the cracks. Literally.

In this episode, Hillary gets personal about growing up mid-sized — always feeling like the biggest girl in the room, even when the math didn't quite support it. From Forever 21 dressing rooms to frat house basements, she unpacks what it actually felt like to exist in a body that the fashion industry, diet culture, and society at large simply didn't have a category for.

She also talks about the exhausting reality of crash diets, and the moment she finally stopped waiting for a magical day when she'd wake up and love her body.

This one's for every woman who never felt thin enough, or just... enough.

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