What are your New Year resolutions? May I suggest that you include a year with a clear mind to your list. I used to smoke to escape my reality and suppress my emotions, but with denial comes paranoia and after a while, I didn't recognize who I was and realized I was very dependent on substances to make it through the day. If this sounds relatable then I recommend taking a break, friend. Put down the devil's lettuce for a while and see how you feel :)