Have you ever found yourself curled up in a ball thinking about how you honestly don’t know if you will make it much longer? Or have you, at times, felt so angry with God that all you wanted was to yell at Him and never talk to Him again unless, of course, you needed to yell at Him some more? If you’ve answered yes to either question, this story is for you.

To keep it short, I’ve had major health problems since I was 9: systemic scleroderma, rheumatoid arthritis, and Raynaud’s syndrome, which also led to major emotional and spiritual problems.