If you’ve been feeling a little off lately, a little tired, a little “I need to go live in the mountains and talk to nobody for six months”… same. Welcome to Frequency Friday. Today’s vibe is: real world chaos, emotional survival, music therapy, and me not losing my mind.

So look… I know I’m not the only one who’s been looking at the world lately like:

“Am I the only person here trying to hold onto some peace while everything feels like it’s overheating, underfunded, or just straight-up wrong?” It’s not your imagination. The world is going through it right now. From climate stress to conflict to injustice to your local grocery prices being disrespectful.

And for those of us who actually feel things? Who can’t just scroll and forget? It’s a lot. But here’s where I had to check myself this week: I realized I was treating my nervous system like a Wi-Fi router. Like it needed to stay online 24/7 and respond to every alert, every update, every global tragedy. And you know what happened? I shut down. Not dramatically. Just… emotionally buffering in the background. Scrolling but not feeling. Being present but not peaceful.

That’s when I remembered something that changed everything for me: My spirit was never meant to hold the whole world at once. But I am responsible for how I show up in it. And for me, that starts with my energy. This part isn’t just poetic it’s practical. When you stop trying to carry everything, you finally have the energy to do the one thing that’s yours to do.

Now let me tell you what saved me this week: Music. Not in a cliché way or in a “I listened to a healing playlist and levitated” way. I mean I literally turned off the world, turned on In My Energy, and let myself feel again. Sometimes the only thing keeping me from going off is making music about it first. You know what I mean? Music is my emotional diffuser. It softens the air before I say something I can’t take back. And making this album? That was my rebellion. My refusal to let stress be my personality. My way of saying, “Okay world, you’re loud but I’m still gonna choose softness, slowness, and my own frequency.”

This album wasn’t about sounding good. It was about staying sane. You don’t have to be a singer to use your voice as armor. You just have to stop silencing the parts of you that are begging to be heard. Write it. Speak it. Hum it while folding towels. Put it in a playlist. Paint it. Dance it out. Don’t let anyone tell you that’s not sacred too.

This isn’t about being creative for the internet. It’s about being honest with yourself in a way that heals your nervous system. Because survival mode will trick you into silence. But expression brings you back online in a way that doesn’t drain you. This is how we start tending to our inner weather again.

You know what else came up for me this week? I realized I’ve been treating hope like an emotion. Waiting for it to show up. Waiting for a reason to feel hopeful. But no. Hope is not a guest you wait on. It’s a tool you pick up. It’s a practice. Just like hydration and brushing your teeth. You don’t wait to feel thirsty to drink water. You do it because your body runs better that way. Same thing with hope. You choose it because your spirit runs better that way. So I had to ask myself: “What if hope isn’t something I feel It’s something I do?”

And this week, that looked like:

• Turning off the noise

• Playing my own music

• Talking to myself out loud in the car (y’all know I’ve been working on this)

• Laughing at funny TikToks

• Lighting a candle like it was a sacred act (because sometimes it is)

And you know what happened? I didn’t feel like everything was fixed… But I did feel like I was still in here. Still present and worth protecting. And when you’ve been running on fumes emotionally? That’s everything.

If you’ve been feeling sensitive I understand! You’re not weak. You’re awake. And that’s a good thing. But even warriors sit down and healers have soft days. Those who are strong need music, muffins and a break from all the notifications.

So here’s your Frequency Friday reminder: You can care and still rest. You can create and still be tired. You can hope and still have questions. Just don’t disappear on yourself trying to stay “on” for the world. Bring your full self into the room whatever version showed up today. And if it helps? I made this album for that.

In My Energy is for the moments you forget your value, and need a musical memo. Let this be one. And let yourself breathe.

You know, I was thinking today about something I never really focused on until today. I wasn’t even a teenager yet, and my mom was already sending me to care for sick people in the church. She said I had a gift. That people felt better around me. And maybe they did. But I was still a little girl. And then, when my sister got sick, I was right there again. Helping. Giving. That became the pattern.

By the time I got grown, caregiving turned into a job… and I’ve been doing it ever since. Even now in some of my relationships I still feel like the caregiver. And I don’t resent what I gave. But I do realize… I’ve been showing up with a full heart in places that never thought to ask if mine was tired. I’ve been generous with my presence, even when I felt invisible. And I think I’m finally ready to say: I’ve seen enough and sown enough. It’s time I get to experience what I’ve always been offering. Not just relief but rest. Not only being loved for what I give but being held for who I am. I’m not just the one who brings the healing anymore. I am the one who deserves to receive it.

It’s not bitterness. I’m just finally paying attention to what I deserve. I finally trust that I don’t have to prove I’m worthy of softness, help, or overflow. I already am. So if you’ve been in a cycle where you feel like you’re always the strong one… always the helper, always the one people call when they need something

I just want you to hear me when I say: It’s not selfish to want care. It’s standing on holy ground… We don’t stop being givers by becoming takers. We balance the equation by receiving fully. By letting ourselves be seen, softened, and supported. I’m not playing a part I’m building a new pattern. And I’m walking in it. Fully. Freely. Finally.

May the wisdom within guide you, the freedom within carry you, and the love within remind you….it is already done!

—Renee’

Fuel The Frequency

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