My heart goes out to you if you are suicidal or are having suicidal thoughts! Your life matters and please stay! Even if the world or your life is a complete mess—if you go through with it, you’ll never find out how good and meaningful your life could get. And your intense suffering or dark/numb nothingness can ease quicker than you think with the right help and support. Hopefully my story and insight will be of benefit. Also, I want to dedicate these 3 songs to this podcast episode that you can listen to however you get your music or look up the lyric videos on YouTube.com. #1 “No Longer Slaves” by Bethel Music. (Love the lyric video imagery of going through the woods similar to going on your own Underground Railroad to get to freedom. Also love the more unplugged lyric video of flowy white fabric to feel of God’s love for you as I imagine Him in white robes wanting to encircle you in His love and comfort you in your pain.) #2 “Tell Your Heart to Beat Again” by Danny Gokey. (Love the lyric video of being on a better road than possibly this dirt one you’ve been on.) #3 “Worn” by Tenth Avenue North. (Also love the “Worn-video journal” by lead singer Mike Donehey.)