This episode goes to the root: the refined self-life that still governs spiritual hunger, revelation, and even surrender. Alex reads from Watchman Nee’s Knowing the Self and uncovers how Holy Spirit applies the Cross—not as a distant truth, but as an inwrought work within. It is about the death of self. The pursuit of breakthrough, the wilderness of delay, and the daily denial of independence all come under one spotlight: the blade of the Cross.
📘 Core Truths from this episode:
1⃣ “If they learn to know one more thing, it is for the sake of glorifying self.” Even revelation can become fuel for pride when self is still the source. Every hunger must be handed over to the Cross.
2⃣ “God is compelled to keep you in the wilderness longer…” The wilderness doesn’t end until self is exposed. Delay is not discipline—it is the mercy of God confronting what still draws from the old man.
3⃣ “The cross is a principle… to deny self and depend on God.” The Cross is not a crisis moment—it is a way of life. Holy Spirit applies it precisely, habitually, and deeply to every place where self still rules.
🧭 Ask Yourself:
→ Where am I still seeking revelation for self’s validation? Does my hunger for truth serve Christ—or is it a quiet attempt to prove that I’m worth listening to?
→ How do I respond when the wilderness drags on? Do I view the delay as failure—or as the Father’s mercy, exposing every place where self still holds the reins?
→ Where is Holy Spirit applying the Cross right now? What part of me is being pierced—brought to death so that Christ can finally live through me?
📘 Free PDF of The Messenger of the Cross: https://issacharpropheticcity.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/the-messenger-of-the-cross.pdf
📘 Listener’s Guide: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1CghKe2NP9ZMslL3fq12ijjq6DhciUFuh?usp=sharing
📘 Toxic Love by Malcolm Smith: https://amzn.eu/d/3MyQTmz
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This episode goes to the root: the refined self-life that still governs spiritual hunger, revelation, and even surrender. Alex reads from Watchman Nee’s Knowing the Self and uncovers how Holy Spirit applies the Cross—not as a distant truth, but as an inwrought work within. It is about the death of self. The pursuit of breakthrough, the wilderness of delay, and the daily denial of independence all come under one spotlight: the blade of the Cross.
📘 Core Truths from this episode:
1⃣ “If they learn to know one more thing, it is for the sake of glorifying self.” Even revelation can become fuel for pride when self is still the source. Every hunger must be handed over to the Cross.
2⃣ “God is compelled to keep you in the wilderness longer…” The wilderness doesn’t end until self is exposed. Delay is not discipline—it is the mercy of God confronting what still draws from the old man.
3⃣ “The cross is a principle… to deny self and depend on God.” The Cross is not a crisis moment—it is a way of life. Holy Spirit applies it precisely, habitually, and deeply to every place where self still rules.
🧭 Ask Yourself:
→ Where am I still seeking revelation for self’s validation? Does my hunger for truth serve Christ—or is it a quiet attempt to prove that I’m worth listening to?
→ How do I respond when the wilderness drags on? Do I view the delay as failure—or as the Father’s mercy, exposing every place where self still holds the reins?
→ Where is Holy Spirit applying the Cross right now? What part of me is being pierced—brought to death so that Christ can finally live through me?
📘 Free PDF of The Messenger of the Cross: https://issacharpropheticcity.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/01/the-messenger-of-the-cross.pdf
📘 Listener’s Guide: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1CghKe2NP9ZMslL3fq12ijjq6DhciUFuh?usp=sharing
📘 Toxic Love by Malcolm Smith: https://amzn.eu/d/3MyQTmz
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