In this entry, twitchy witch and Savannah Brown are both cited as inspiration for this format and project. It’s only right to give them their flowers. There’s something compelling to me about watching people figure things out in real time, and this unedited format allows that.

I write from this space often, but my voice doesn’t get the same treatment. It takes months for me to release an audio entry because I’m still mildly scarred from that period of my life where I thought I had everything figured out enough to speak into the ether. And then life happened and ripped that certainty away from me. I’ve already told you this. I’m just absorbing the idea a little deeper because I didn’t understand how much of that period has been living in me.

I’ll be sending these entries at night since my usual correspondence goes out during the early morning. I’m also planning to paywall these at the end of each week. I may decide not to later. I want to give myself the option of mild protection.

When I recorded this, I thought I was the dumbest person on the planet. When I listened back, I felt less so. That’s why I like making voice memos. I can hear how I sound to someone who isn’t me.

I also wanna leave a little moodboard behind based on what I feel drawn to while listening back. For today:

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