i have been craving chinese food for weeks now, and because of my masochistic relationship to my body i've opted to sustain, but also... i'm old now, the road has led us to depleted sources of vibrancy... when i eat food now it makes me fat and sleepy. i used to run for miles and miles. i was a deer in a forest, now i'm a fat guy on a couch, wearing increasingly bigger hoodies to hide my belly