
Sign up to save your podcasts
Or


What happens when your body flares up… and so does your deepest fear of being unlovable?
In this raw and vulnerable episode, I share about navigating a Crohn’s flare, emotional eating, sobriety, and the resurfacing of my childhood “unloveability wound.”
Joined by my partner Fēnix Grace, we explore how chronic illness impacts intimacy, why your body is your primary partner, and how resistance to healing can keep you stuck.
If you’ve ever felt like a burden in relationships, struggled with shame around your health, or used food to cope with emotional pain — this episode is for you.
We cover:
The link between chronic illness and shame
Emotional eating as a trauma response
Why healing is nonlinear
How attunement to your body deepens intimacy
Releasing resistance in shadow work
Reparenting your inner child
LINKS
CHAPTERS
00:00 – Why I’m Recording While in a Flare
Sharing vulnerably instead of waiting to “be better.”
02:30 – Growing Up with Crohn’s Disease
Chronic illness, domestic violence, and early shame.
06:45 – Feeling Like a Burden in Love
The unloveability wound resurfaces in partnership.
11:40 – The Ego of “I’m Healed”
Why healing isn’t linear (and why that’s humbling).
16:40 – Addiction, Sobriety & Emotional Eating
Food as a coping mechanism and nervous system regulation.
19:45 – Your Body Is Your Primary Partner
How self-attunement affects intimacy and consent.
23:30 – Communication Breakdowns & Somatic Awareness
Why many couples struggle to name what they feel.
28:00 – Reparenting the Inner Child
Why emotional eating began — and how to shift it.
30:05 – Resistance to Healing
The emotional block keeping physical healing stuck.
32:15 – Letting Go & Ego Death
Surrender, humility, and deep spiritual growth.
Outro – Shame Withers in the Light
Why speaking your shame is medicine.
Music Credits
https://uppbeat.io/t/paul-yudin/dreamstate
License code: YTLHO7DQH73KDCKC
https://uppbeat.io/t/jeff-kaale/new-chapter
License code: 8U4D1JARWUZ8WEYO
By Forest WilliamsWhat happens when your body flares up… and so does your deepest fear of being unlovable?
In this raw and vulnerable episode, I share about navigating a Crohn’s flare, emotional eating, sobriety, and the resurfacing of my childhood “unloveability wound.”
Joined by my partner Fēnix Grace, we explore how chronic illness impacts intimacy, why your body is your primary partner, and how resistance to healing can keep you stuck.
If you’ve ever felt like a burden in relationships, struggled with shame around your health, or used food to cope with emotional pain — this episode is for you.
We cover:
The link between chronic illness and shame
Emotional eating as a trauma response
Why healing is nonlinear
How attunement to your body deepens intimacy
Releasing resistance in shadow work
Reparenting your inner child
LINKS
CHAPTERS
00:00 – Why I’m Recording While in a Flare
Sharing vulnerably instead of waiting to “be better.”
02:30 – Growing Up with Crohn’s Disease
Chronic illness, domestic violence, and early shame.
06:45 – Feeling Like a Burden in Love
The unloveability wound resurfaces in partnership.
11:40 – The Ego of “I’m Healed”
Why healing isn’t linear (and why that’s humbling).
16:40 – Addiction, Sobriety & Emotional Eating
Food as a coping mechanism and nervous system regulation.
19:45 – Your Body Is Your Primary Partner
How self-attunement affects intimacy and consent.
23:30 – Communication Breakdowns & Somatic Awareness
Why many couples struggle to name what they feel.
28:00 – Reparenting the Inner Child
Why emotional eating began — and how to shift it.
30:05 – Resistance to Healing
The emotional block keeping physical healing stuck.
32:15 – Letting Go & Ego Death
Surrender, humility, and deep spiritual growth.
Outro – Shame Withers in the Light
Why speaking your shame is medicine.
Music Credits
https://uppbeat.io/t/paul-yudin/dreamstate
License code: YTLHO7DQH73KDCKC
https://uppbeat.io/t/jeff-kaale/new-chapter
License code: 8U4D1JARWUZ8WEYO