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Leann Smith. That was the woman’s name. I, um…I don’t know what the ethics are of nosing through someone’s home when they’re lying dead in the other room, but no one’s here to tell me not to. And I wanted to—I guess I wanted to know something about her. I wanted to know if there was some…connection, I guess. 

Because that would…it would lend some kind of sense to all of this, right? Harry and I both being alive still—that makes sense. We were together when whatever happened happened and we were intentionally hiding from the world at the time. If something, you know, swept through civilization, we were isolated from it. 

Mrs. Smith, here, well she was isolated too, I guess. She lived all the way out here, in the middle of nowhere, by herself. At least I think she lived by herself. I found a stack of old mail that I guess she must have kept this whole time for…sentimental reasons? I get that, I think I would’ve done the same if I’d be living at my own address. And the mail was only ever addressed to her. If someone else lived here, there’s no evidence of them, and a woman who kept mail from six years ago would’ve almost certainly kept traces of whoever she lived with. 

But there are—well, there are photos. Photos of her with a man—her husband maybe—and then, eventually, with kids. The most recent photo, based on her age in it—she’s got her arms around two women in their…late twenties I’d guess? Younger than me. Or, at least, younger than I am now, though I guess probably not the year this photo was taken. 

Leann herself is—was—sixty-one. I found her driver’s license and her work badge. She worked for the Bureau of Land Management. Probably how she survived this long on her own, she must have picked up some useful skills in that job. 

She had an interesting job, a husband at some point, and two daughters, if I’m interpreting all the photos correctly. Granddaughters I think, or something like it, based off a letter she got, a woman writing about her beautiful daughter Grace, turning one soon, would Leann come visit? She lived a full life—fuller than mine in a lot of respects. Sure, I’ve had excitement and variety but never…

She really does look peaceful now. I thought—well, I thought about burying her, giving her a proper rest, but…I don’t want to move her. Not when she seems to be resting just fine already. I wish I knew anything about what she believed in, I would’ve liked to…I don’t know, pray or say words or sing, no matter how tone deaf. Something to show that she’s—that someone was here, someone knows she’s gone. Someone will remember her. 

I thought maybe I might find a will with the funeral arrangements she’d wanted but all her safe had was a gun, which…that was a bit surprising, um, and what looks like an old engagement ring, and a stack of cash. None of which is particularly useful to me now. 

At least I got to break a lock more intricate than one on the front door of a house. It wasn't a very good safe, but it kept me occupied for nearly a minute. That’s something. 

I— I’m not really sure what I’m going on about. I feel…I feel very far away from my body right now. Like I’ve been watching someone else walk casually through the house and open cabinets and rifle through papers. Like that can’t possibly be me, because surely I’m somewhere having a breakdown over the last few days. 

(a slightly manic laugh) But nope! It’s me, I’m the one who has suddenly gotten very comfortable occupying the same space as a dead body. Isn’t it amazing how quickly human beings can adapt to something? I feel like that’s all I’ve done the last six years—actually, I feel like that’s all I’ve done my whole life—adapt, adapt, adapt. The great adapter, that’s me. 

Why wouldn’t I adapt to this new reality that other people did survive but that I don’t get to talk to them? It’s just another piece of information. And information is neutral, easy to digest. And all I’ve done today is gather more and more information and while none of it has proven to be particularly useful…well, I have it now. And that’s something, right? It’s got to be something. 

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