Finding solutions for your shortcomings is hard, but it's even harder when you spend all of your energy focussing on the things that don't matter. 

Stop spending time, money, and endless energy because of the endless excuses for why you can't  can’t do it. 

Don't dwell on the why you can't. Don't cry over the what if's .Don't fixate on the "where you would be" ifs. Don't fall back into old thinking patterns. Don't relate this experience to any past. 

FOCUS ON FINDING A SOLUTION TO THE FUCKING NOW.