Putting this together after last-minute packing for San Diego. We’re taking the train early to get a full day in before riding back the day after. It still hasn’t clicked. I wished for this trip a month ago.

I’m thinking about everything but still turning my heart over in my hands. What does she feel? What does she want? I don’t really get her today.

I need to sleep right now to not be cranky, so I’ll stop here. I like how this new ritual feels. Another moodboard, but a little smaller:

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