I was triggered this evening, by a phone call from a very close family member, our relationship has been very distant of lately and it’s hard to be myself around this person any longer. This is truly significant because this person was the closest person to me, so the distance almost feels as if a piece of me is dead/gone. I know that trust is important and I know that even more so now, for you see because the trust was breached within our relationship I can’t be myself and I cannot consciously overwrite said feeling. Not to mention the fact that I have denied many aspects of my persona In order to keep peace within the relationship, which I guess I can no longer do. It’s much easier to be freely yourself and to learn to embrace the parts of you that may offend others than it is to live a lie and to deny these aspects of self that make you so uniquely you. It’s so sad because the fact that you are so close should make it that much easier to communicate with you! but unfortunately it doesn’t.