I entered this year with uncertain feet, without any direction, and you leave this with more scars and losing battles.

I let go of fighting this, of trying to overcome this. I let go of being the failure who couldn’t pull it together, who couldn’t get the victory. I let go of holding God responsible for not “fixing” this. I let go of the doubt that this is all in my head—that you need to think harder or smarter to get over this.