I tried to record a podcast about getting triggered at church, realized I didn’t record it, and started over feeling frustrated.

A speaker from outside our congregation shared a message on a common topic, but his angle and the “sticky,” old-fashioned, heavy emotional language didn’t resonate with me, so I stepped out for a bit, prayed to run into someone, chatted in the hallway, and then returned and enjoyed the end.

Afterward I processed what happened with my coach, named my emotions, and even rewatched the talk to pinpoint what bothered me.

I realized I agreed with parts of his message, but I was judging myself for not feeling “heartbroken,” then projected that into judging him even though he wasn’t judging me.

I’m grateful for the growth, and for having support like my coach, my emotions workbook, and Rob as a safe place to process.