As a Chinese person who has been dominated by exams throughout my life, I recently realized that I am afraid of exams. I constantly feel anxious about upcoming tests, believing that my preparation is never enough and that I am incapable of performing to my true potential. It feels as though a single exam has the power to define my worth.

This is the trauma that China's exam culture has left me with.

00:06 Adjusting my goals: deciding to give up the Dutch B2 exam

01:13 My experience learning Dutch and my language proficiency

03:01 The pressure of tight timelines

04:24 Feeling sad after changing my goals

06:21 I’m Chinese, but I’m not good at taking exams

08:11 Exam culture in the Chinese education system and its impact on individuals

13:15 Closing remarks of the podcast

作为一个被考试支配了一生的中国人，我最近突然意识到我害怕考试。我无时不刻地为即将到来的考试感到紧张，总是觉得自己的准备不够，无法在考试中发挥正常水平，仿佛一场考试就能决定我的价值。

这是中国的考试文化带给我的创伤。

00:06 目标调整：决定放弃荷兰语B2考试

01:13 学习荷兰语的经历及语言水平

03:01 时间线压力

04:24 改变目标后感到难过

06:21 我是中国人，但是我不擅长考试

08:11 中国教育体系中的考试文化与个人创伤

13:15 播客收尾

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