something I did want to talk about I don't know if I touched on and I wanted to talk about when I was mentioning that that visionary aspect comes in and sort of displaces or kicks out some of the ego elements at least temporarily is that the ego being displaced kicks out some of a person's functioning and ability perhaps and scrambles it but what happens is that a person in the visionary state they can actually acquire new abilities so a person doesn't necessarily have a disability they perhaps have different abilities and so it will be interesting to find out what it is that these abilities are that people can all of a sudden manifest just like sometimes a person that has a stroke or some kind of brain thing happen all of a sudden when they recover they are a great poet or they can write music when they've never learned music and these things are pretty rare but i feel that a person after they've gone through a mental health crisis perhaps sometimes now has a new pool of abilities to tap into and people that when they're in the extreme part of their visionary state they might feel like they're psychic they might feel like they're a profit they might feel like they're magical and maybe they are for that little time being maybe it's just a delusion whatever but how can some of those extreme traits actually get tamed down into something that is tangible on a daily basis so maybe a person that was felt like they were a prophet and they were writing a new spiritual doctrine while they were in that state maybe that person actually did connect with kind of spirituality that they want to explore when perhaps before the crisis they were an atheist or maybe a person starts like writing incessantly and then after the fact they can still write pretty well and maybe they are not channeling the type of information they were before but maybe all of a sudden they do have access to being able to write or I feel there's a lot of heart centered qualities that come into play so for example when I was in mania I felt very connected to the issue and occurrence of homelessness and before that I didn't have any real interest or thoughts about that but when I was in that state I could feel it like I know where I can sense or have a felt sense or it's like it's in within me that I can feel the empathy that empathetic resonance with the person that's homeless and I could really feel it and it was extremely painful so even though the manic state is very beautiful and wonderful and happy I also experienced a lot of pain in that I was so open and I was so vulnerable and I was so as if there was no ego of my own self to block me from resonating with whoever it was that I was perceiving at the moment so if I was looking at a little child I would be in just like Glee and happiness and how wonderfully happy they are or if I saw a parent yelling at their child I would just kind of be mad like you know you don't need to do that and um and then if I saw like homeless person I would feel incredible pain and sadness and and freezing cold and just it's almost like since I was nothing as an ego I was just whatever I wherever I was I was what that situation was and I could feel it and now imagine if we were like that all the time if all of us could really sense what we were seeing so if I if somebody looked at a homeless person they felt what it was like to be homeless they didn't feel yadda yadda ya goin on about what's for dinner thinking about what happened at work and looking at it and walking by which means not actually seeing anything at all not seen so this ego and monologue and yet yammering on actually is a protection mechanism because it blocks whatever it is that's really there because whatever is going on in the Yammer is not what's really there it's just you hammering and it actually prevents action so going back to when I manic and there's no real yammering and I'm really there with what's happening in the moment I have to go help that homeless person I have to go take him for coffee I have to go give them ten dollars not just one dollar you know it's it's instant action because I can actually feel it it's not just because I'm like oh it's like ouch like I feel your pain like you can't be in this much pain because I now I feel it's like I'm in this much pain to I'm right there with you it's a very sensitive state its hypersensitivity it's too much information in that most people don't receive that amount of information if everybody received that amount of information with everything they looked at you know that would be a lot of information but our thinking that we are separate egos and our identification with our own inner personal monologue actually is what blocks the sensitivity and a certain amount of it I'm sure is necessary it's really necessary because we have to protect ourselves well we don't have to but what what I'm saying is that by this calculation if if everybody entered that state of consciousness which is called mania where you really experience for a lot of it you really feel what you're seeing you're not separate from it you know if you if you see a tree you're feeling that tree and you're like wow this and especially looking at nature it's the most beautiful thing ever nothing could be more beautiful and human beings too but then to see some of the unfortunate circumstances of human beings and feeling that if everyone would all of a sudden feel bad there would be a lot of action but there'd also be a lot of confusion because because you don't know what is you anymore because once a person you know once I was in that state for a long time and I'd felt so many different situations I didn't know what was me there was no me it was just whatever was in the moment and and I feel like if all of a sudden all of us could feel that at the same time there'd be a lot of confusion people would be like what's me would am I doing this who's doing this who's making me feel this way and we're all doing it and we've all done it by allowing it to come to be we have all played our part in creating that and creating a person being homeless and everyone walking by you know that would be like somebody walking by well somebody walking by somebody that's bleeding to death which actually can happen in a crowd too because everybody thinks well if something was wrong everybody somebody would do something but you know I guess that's what happens with the people laying on the street too is that you know oh it's can't be that bad everybody else is walking by and you know when I go into manic consciousness and I feel that and then then I can't walk by and maybe there does need to be a certain amount of that slowly happening where people start feeling like I can't walk by I can't not do anything you know maybe not all at once but because everybody so identified with their mind they're not really looking at what's going on like maybe people stop walking by trees being cut down and you know realize if we don't have trees we don't have roots and then the soil blows away and then we don't have soil and then if we don't have trees we don't birds we don't have birds they're not going to eat the insects and then why do we have insect-like it's so interconnected and we don't we don't see it you know I even had this sense that when there's a lot of traffic on my street I live on a busy street the birds don't chirp to each other and it's not that I can't hear them they don't and then when it's quieter there are other out in their trip and do each other so even that all the noise the birds can't communicate so even if they're what we're a few trees if there's more roads and noise they still can't do what they need to do and it's really important to have Birds you know really important so yeah a certain amount of people not being able to walk by and it's not even walking by is it it's realizing that that person laying there is actually me too not me is in the ego but as in that pain that that person's in is my pain too and I feel like that's a lot of what is causing mental illness is that you know maybe society as a whole seems normal and the baseline of people is normal but all that pain and and that inequality that we ignore is happening in consciousness so it might not be happening to you or me or somebody else that you know or we know but it's happening to somebody and it's happening in consciousness and we all share that consciousness because it's all the same like pain is pain human suffering is human suffering and we all suffer and so if I'm not suffering and somebody else's you know you can think of it as an additive effect in consciousness and their suffering ignored is going to come out as some kind of something in somebody else not because not because of punishment but because it's just it's all human consciousness it's got to go somewhere if somebody's crying out and suffering and laying on the street and they're being ignored just because they're not able to articulate themselves doesn't mean that it's not there doesn't there's a human being there it's a whole universe that's being ignored you know so if if that energy of some sort and consciousness creates mania which is sort of people often not always you know I'm generalizing here I'm not and I'm speaking from my own experience and things that I've heard but I'm not saying this is all true um I'm just you know I'm just talking really um you know that energy of that person suffering and crying out laying there you know you can almost think of it as like a negative disturbance in a way that creates like this positive disturbance and consciousness that creates almost a person being manifested to have that energy where their ego sort of disappears a bit and they're not able to walk by so the one being walked by and suffering and calling for help inside that energy could create that a consciousness responds a person responds maybe not exactly to that person laying there directly you know that would b

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