No trigger warning today.

Today is pretty normal teen stuff - loves lost - and silly mistakes. 

MILD TRIGGER WARNING: There is discussion of how it feels to be in relationship with your abuser, but nothing explicit.

Heather struggles with understanding how to react to the news about her father being her likely abuser. She's having trouble concentrating on anything but this. Some days are harder than others. At the same time, Heather is finding joy in being a advocate for God without being pushy!

Trigger & Language Warning: There are many descriptions of sexual abuse, physical abuse and other serious topics in today's journal entries and responses.

Heather learns that her father, whom she adores, was likely her abuser. She grapples with the complex feelings she has about knowing this information now.  Mom offers some insights and also has a long conversation with McKayla where they share their experiences with abuse. 

No trigger warning. Some minor cursing in reflections.

11:11 am and pm held a special significance for Heather. It seemed like everyday she joyously announced this time and ordered all of us to make a wish. After she passed, I noticed that I saw the clock at 11:11 and even 1:11 almost every single day.  I could be deep in work and glance up at the clock. I could not have my watch or phone and have to go search for the time and it would be 11:11. I could suddenly remember I need to do something. It happens so frequently that I can't help but think about Heather daily. Without knowing it, she created a secret message for me to hold her in my thoughts daily. But I don't make wishes.  I pray for whatever God has in store for me. 

No trigger warning today!

Heather's continues to try to earn her way into God's grace, but she seems to be catching on a little. Her moods are still shift minute by minute as she tries to navigate life. Mom, as always, has a few things to say about being yourself and loving yourself!

There are two curse words in the second half of this podcast. Otherwise, there are no trigger warnings.

Today is a double episode based on two separate entries in Heather's journal in the same day - which happens to demonstrate how quickly emotions change .... but the answers stay the same.

Trigger Warning: There is some mild language and a brief discussion of a drunken person.

It is just another day of struggles as Heather tries to be a good girl and follow all the rules! If only she understood that it isn't about rules, it's about relationships built on trust. We will all make mistakes and have to learn to recover from them in a healthy way. And we can love each other anyway.

Trigger Warning: A few curse words are used in today's episode; There are also brief mentions of Sexual and Physical Abuse, Promiscuity, Cutting, and Abandonment.

Heather continues to fight the memories and beliefs that plague her. She shifts back and forth between despair and hope, searching for answers. Mom tries to help her understand the underlying  problem and needs so that Heater can find a lasting solution.

Heather often wrote poetry. Short and sweet. Enjoy!

Trigger Warning: Discussions of cutting, inadequacies, Satan, as well as cursing

Heather used cutting as a coping mechanism to feel something. In this letter she realizes she cut in a place that might show. The real discussion isn't about cutting, but about the reasons that she feels the need to cut. She feels that she isn't enough. Mom doesn't have all the answers, but she engages in discussions about these universal feelings and one way to manage them.