As part of an experiment, I wanted to share a series of one-card readings and make a reinterpretation of the card to match. First up is Queen of Cups, who came out alongside the Tower. I was a little confused at first, but it became clear as I did the initial reading why she wanted the “mask off” energy emphasized. She was so serious that I didn’t record the first version of the reading, which I didn’t realize until I went to hit stop.

This audio is the second version, equally as honest, and coincidentally catches me actively integrating the lesson in real time.

The next morning, after re-reading Savannah Brown’s essay “on astral projection” via Patreon, I found a comment recommending Letting Go by David R. Hawkins. Within the first chapter, I realized that the practice Hawkins was outlining could be distilled into exactly what I say in this reading. I’ll report back on how I enjoy the book, of course.

I share this to say that this message moved quickly to find its way to you. I made all the graphics in less than a day, which is rare. You’re getting this post less than two days after I had the initial idea for “daily” pulls. I’m not surprised because it is an idea we need to return to, especially during an intense week like this one. I’m fully aware of the mirroring Scorpio energy of our queen and the Monday full moon (who’s still taking casualties).

I hope you feel held by this realization like I have. If you’re listening to this, I sense it found you exactly when it needed to. It even came in a bite-sized 7 minutes (the original was half an hour)!

“She's not interested in your games, your stories, your lies and beliefs around what your feelings mean. She just wants your feelings. She wants to sit with them. She wants to hold them. She just wants to hear you. That is what the Queen of Cups is about. […]

Having an emotion doesn't make you automatically honest. But allowing yourself to feel an emotion is the most honest thing you can do for yourself. To sit with an emotion for all it is — sit with a feeling of frustration or awe, resolution, or expansion, or tightness, or whatever — for what it is,[and] it not be disturbed by these ideas around it is revolutionary. […]

She wants your mess. She wants your snot, your tears, your core. She wants it all. She wants your depravity. She wants it. She wants your elation, your hyper, your hyper hyper-feeling. She wants your hyperness. She wants you to open up and be free with her. Freedom with her is feeling without filter, no performance, no dimming of the self, none of that nonsense. You’re just going to feel in whatever way it comes up. You'll say stuff and you'll do stuff and it is what it is and she's just gonna hold it with you and she's gonna say “Okay, okay.” You're crying and you don't know why? “Okay.” How often do you need to hear from someone that it is okay to just be?”

I hope you like it, because I definitely want to do this again. If you’d like the transcript, let me know and I’ll update the post.

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