That's a really nice day. So decided to go for a walk in the park. And everything starting to bud or even some flowers. Spring is here. So have to keep that in mind to remember to get outside when I can. And I'm on day two of ketogenic, even though I've been doing it for a few more days than that, yesterday was the first day that I was really able to stay in my targets of fat and protein and carbs. And I'm doing good so far today, too. And I weighed myself today. And I'm 117, which is down two pounds from 119. So that is a bit of evidence that this might help for some fat loss. Not saying I'm fat, I'm not fat, but it's good to cleanse and get rid of some of the old fat every now and then. Because I'm not going to stick to this ketogenic thing forever. Maybe a month, maybe up until my next crisis, maybe only a couple more days, I don't know. And it looks so magical. And it feels kind of like, inside is coming back a bit. I wasn't sure if it would being on 50 milligrams of typing a day, but starting to write down some insights. So that could be a sign of dopamine getting higher. And I emailed Peter Smith to do another consultation with him to talk about his suicide remedy program, or anti suicide, it should be really remedies to help when this switch happens in my brain that makes me feel like I want to harm myself or in my life. And the last time it happened, I just felt like I was ending my life in my brain. But I was just laying there. And I was fully aware of that. But it was just agonizing. And then I had to go back on meds and it was such a long, hard journey. So wouldn't be planned better, and prepared better this time. And I also asked him in the email, since my cycle of eight and a half months is very predictable. If I could start tapering off the antidepressant stuff, that sort of pushes me towards mania a month before the crisis, and maybe if that lowers the dopamine, because in the past, I haven't been on these remedies, and it just seems to naturally get higher and higher

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