Colorado is remembering the five people killed at Club Q a year ago. Dozens more survived that night, and have been trying to figure out life in the aftermath. Stories from four people in their own words remind us that there is no going back to “normal,” and that for each of us, survival has its own meaning.

This is an installment of Colorado In Depth, a podcast featuring special reporting and investigations from CPR News. This episode is a collaboration with CPR’s partner KRCC.

Reported and produced by Abigail Beckman