Have you ever grieved a baby that no one else even knew existed?

If you've been carrying that ache alone, friend, you're not alone. So many women who've had an abortion are walking around with a grief they've never been taught how to name, let alone how to process — and it can feel impossible when the people around you have no idea your baby is even in heaven.

In this episode, we're going back to the basics of post-abortion grief. Society hands us plenty of scripts for other kinds of loss, but no one ever taught us how to mourn a baby lost to abortion — so most of us just... didn't. We buried it instead. I'm sharing a piece of my own story of realizing I had a baby waiting for me in heaven and having absolutely no idea how to grieve him, because for years, I didn't either.

We'll walk through three simple but powerful steps to finally begin mourning your baby. I'll share the what, why, and how behind each one so you can actually start walking this out, not just think about it.

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Did you know the shame you buried after your abortion could be showing up in your body as fatigue, autoimmune flares, or anxiety you can't explain?

If you've been chasing physical healing without ever touching the shame underneath it, friend, you're not alone.

This week I'm joined by Dr. Tanya Paynter, a naturopathic doctor whose own crisis of faith led her into Christian apologetics and into some eye-opening research on how our relationship with God shapes our physical health. We talk about the real, physical toll that unresolved guilt and shame can take on the body, and why healing has to start somewhere deeper than a supplement or a symptom list.

Tanya shares a story from her practice that will completely shift how you think about the connection between your past and your present-day health, and a piece of her own healing journey that took years to walk out.

We walk through the foundation Tanya recommends for anyone carrying trauma in their body: where to start with God first, what comes next for your mind and emotions, and why you were never meant to heal alone.

You're going to love this conversation! 

Connect with Dr. Tanya Paynter: 

Podcast - The Christian Clinician

Free Guide - Why Hasn't God Healed Me Yet?

Website - https://www.psalmmedical.com/

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Do you feel ready (like really ready) to finally be free, but you're not sure what "the work" actually looks like? Friend, you are not alone, and you don't have to figure this out on your own.

In this episode, I'm pulling back the curtain on the exact guided roadmap I use to walk women from shame straight into real, lasting peace. If you've ever felt hesitant to say yes to healing because you didn't know what you were signing up for, this one's for you.

I'll take you back to when I started my own healing program and how terrifying it felt to commit to something with no idea what was on the other side. That fear is exactly why I built this roadmap the way I did: so no one has to walk in blind.

Grab a notebook — you'll want to take notes!

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Do you feel like shame has just become part of who you are - like it's the price you have to pay for what happened? Friend, you are not alone, and you were never meant to carry that weight forever.

In this episode, we're talking about the practical, step-by-step path from shame to peace after abortion. This isn't about pretending the pain away - it's about finally facing it, with God right beside you, so you can walk into the freedom He already died to give you.

We'll walk through three shifts that move you from stuck to healing. Grab a notebook - you'll want to write these down!

✨ Join us for the Abortion Recovery Workshop on 9/9 at 7pm CT

This free live workshop is where we go even deeper into healing after abortion — come with your questions and leave with real next steps.

👉 https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Want to work 1:1 with me?

Schedule an Abortion Recovery Coaching Call—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God.

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Do you ever look around your church pew and think, "I must be the only one who's done this"?

If you've ever felt like the only woman in the room carrying this secret, you're not alone — and today I'm going to prove it with numbers, not just words.

I still remember living on my small college campus, convinced I was the only person there who had ever had an abortion. That belief kept me isolated for years. So in this episode, we're breaking down three eye-opening statistics that show just how common this experience really is — and why the silence in the church is so much bigger than any one woman's story.

Get ready to feel less alone, my friend. 

✨ Join us for the Abortion Recovery Workshop on 9/9 at 7pm CT

This free live workshop is where we go even deeper into healing after abortion — come with your questions and leave with real next steps.

👉 https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

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Have you ever been sitting in church, minding your own business, when your pastor says one sentence and suddenly you're drowning in guilt and shame?

If a sermon has ever knocked the wind out of you and sent you spiraling for the rest of the day — or even into the next week — you're not alone.

This week, we're talking about what to do when Sunday's sermon triggers your post-abortion grief, so you can keep moving forward in your healing instead of backsliding into shame.

I get vulnerable about a time I sat in church feeling completely ashamed — even though abortion was never mentioned — and what that moment taught me about the difference between conviction and being triggered.

We'll walk through two questions to ask yourself the next time this happens, and I'll teach you how to tell the difference between godly conviction and an old wound being triggered — plus how to move forward biblically instead of taking steps backward.

Get ready, because this one will change how you sit in church.

✨ Join us for the Abortion Recovery Workshop on 9/9 at 7pm CT

This free live workshop is where we go even deeper into healing after abortion — come with your questions and leave with real next steps.

👉 https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

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Have you ever grieved a life you thought you'd have?

If you've ever had to let go of a plan, a dream, or a version of your future you were counting on — you're not alone.

This week, I sat down with Nicole, author of The Butterfly Chronicles and host of the Conservative and Chic podcast, to talk about what it looks like to trust God when life doesn't go the way you expected. Nicole was diagnosed with Turner syndrome, a rare genetic disorder, as a child — and it shaped nearly every part of her life, from her health to her education to the family she once imagined she'd have.

Nicole opens up about the hospital visits, the hard questions she asked God as a kid, and the moment at 15 years old when she first found the courage to speak publicly about her diagnosis. She also shares how losing her mother — and the promise she made to her — became the spark behind writing her book.

We talk about what it means to grieve the life you thought you'd have, how Nicole found purpose as an aunt when motherhood looked different than she planned, and the practical way she learned to lean on God's timing instead of her own.

Nicole's story is a beautiful reminder that no two journeys to Christ look the same, and that God can still write something good out of the hardest chapters.

Resources Mentioned: 

Conservative & Chic Podcast

Nicole's Website: https://www.conservativeandchic.com/

Buy Nicole's Book: The Butterfly Chronicles

✨ Join us for the Abortion Recovery Workshop on 9/9 at 7pm CT

This free live workshop is where we go even deeper into healing after abortion — come with your questions and leave with real next steps.

👉 https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Support the Podcast

Do you love our content and want to support our ministry? Head to Buy Me a Coffee to submit a gift to the ministry! Proceeds from Buy Me a Coffee go directly to operating costs for the podcast - we appreciate your support more than you know!

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"I can't forgive myself." That's the sentence I hear more than almost any other — in my inbox, my DMs, my coaching calls. Somehow, we can extend forgiveness to just about everyone else in our lives except ourselves.

If that's you, friend, you're not alone.

In this episode, we're talking about the #1 reason self-forgiveness feels so impossible after abortion — and why you might be the last person on your own forgiveness list. Because here's the truth: it's not about earning God's forgiveness all over again. It's about something deeper you're still holding onto.

I get vulnerable about my own journey working through forgiveness in my healing — and the moment I realized I was the only one still upset with me.

Then I walk you through the real reason it's so hard to let this go, and what it actually takes to finally hand it over to God for good.

I pray this blesses you! 

Resources Mentioned: 

Sermon - "I've got Control Issues": https://youtu.be/TlLU-PHLNYs?is=XH7i62BGbLv-gLoL

✨ Join us for the Abortion Recovery Workshop on 9/9 at 7pm CT

This free live workshop is where we go even deeper into healing after abortion — come with your questions and leave with real next steps.

👉 https://brittanypoppe.com/workshop

✨ Support the Podcast

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Do you see a pro-life billboard and feel your stomach drop? A commercial comes on, a headline catches your eye, someone shares a post — and just like that, the guilt floods back in. You know those reminders aren't going away. But it can feel like every time you see one, you're being called out all over again.

If that's you, friend, you're not alone.

In this episode, we're talking about how to stop letting pro-life content trigger a spiral of guilt — because here's the truth: those signs and headlines weren't put there to condemn you. Grace has already covered what guilt keeps trying to bring back up.

I get vulnerable about a sign near my hometown cemetery that's followed me for years — one I still drive past today — and how God has met me in it, little by little, as I've healed. 

Then I walk you through 3 simple steps to help you respond to those triggers with peace instead of shame — steps you can start using the very next time guilt tries to catch you off guard.

Don't forget to take notes! 

✨ Want to work 1:1 with me?

Schedule an Abortion Recovery Coaching Call—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God.

👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

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Do you love our content and want to support our ministry? Head to Buy Me a Coffee to submit a gift to the ministry! Proceeds from Buy Me a Coffee go directly to operating costs for the podcast - we appreciate your support more than you know!

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Do you sit down to pray and feel completely lost for words? You know prayer matters, but you don't know where to start. Or maybe you do pray regularly — and it feels like your words hit the ceiling. God feels silent. Your prayers feel unanswered. And the pain underneath it all feels too deep and too shameful to bring to Him.

If that's you, friend, you're not alone.

In this episode, we're talking about how to pray for healing after abortion — even when you feel like you don't deserve to. Because here's the truth: healing is available to you. Not because you've earned it, but because grace was never about earning it in the first place.

I get vulnerable about my own prayer life over the last six months — the seasons where prayer felt dry, hard, and honestly kind of hopeless — and how Romans 8:26-27 met me right there:

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God's people in accordance with the will of God."

Then I walk you through a simple, biblical prayer framework you can start using today — five steps to help you reconnect with God in your abortion healing journey, even when you don't have the words. 

Grab a notebook — you're going to need it for this one!

Resources Mentioned: 

True North Church 7/26 Service

Brick Device (not an affiliate link, I just love it!)

✨ Want to work 1:1 with me?

Schedule an Abortion Recovery Coaching Call—we’ll talk through where you’re feeling stuck and what it could look like to finally start moving forward with God.

👉 brittanypoppe.com/coaching

✨ Support the Podcast

Do you love our content and want to support our ministry? Head to Buy Me a Coffee to submit a gift to the ministry! Proceeds from Buy Me a Coffee go directly to operating costs for the podcast - we appreciate your support more than you know!

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