Here's the thing,

When you've been sad for a really long time, that then starts to become your default and you forget that you have the capacity to be happy.

And you start to push away all of the happy and the happy moments because they scare you and you decide that the happy isn't going to last anyway so what's the point in the little bit that you're going to get.

It's really easy to become comfortable in your sadness and fall into the decision that you're just going to be sad because there are no other options.

you owe it to yourself to try. and if you think you don't that's the 2+2=5 talking and we all know that 2+2 actually = 4 and fuck anyone who tells you otherwise

<3Cali