Episode 043 of Living in Response is 3 recordings put together because I kept getting distracted and sometimes it just be like that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Thanks for supporting this raw, stream-of-life, unfolding as I go, experiment in external processing <3

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ Grieving the Dream to Make Room for PurposeI reflect on how tightly I held onto my “manifestation dreams” and how letting go has felt like grief—but it’s also opened the door for something more aligned. It’s not that the dreams are gone, but they’re evolving, just like I am.

2️⃣ False Support vs. True SupportI realized I had been saying I had support during a spiritual crisis but hadn’t actually been reaching out. The difference between saying I’m supported and feeling supported led me to ask for help—and it changed everything.

3️⃣ Yoga, Ram Dass & Awakening QuestionsSince January, I’ve gone deep into yoga philosophy, tantra, Dzogchen, and Ram Dass. These teachings cracked me open. I started asking bigger questions, feeling overwhelmed, and realizing I needed to pause the information overload.

4️⃣ The Paradox of Suffering & AwarenessHow do I witness suffering without over-identifying with it? How do I engage with the world’s pain from a grounded place? I unpack the tension between collective compassion and individual agency.

5️⃣ The Power of Being SeenIn a session with a psychic-intuitive I trust, I felt deeply seen—and I cried almost instantly. So much of what she reflected I already knew, but being witnessed shifted something in me. There’s real magic in being met by someone who gets it.

6️⃣ A Thousand Versions of MeTransformation isn’t linear—it’s constant. I share how grief is part of my natural cycle, and how loving me means loving all the evolving versions. This has helped me release urgency and soften into trust.

7️⃣ Letting Go of the Savior ComplexI share a powerful story about my time in animal welfare, where I burned out trying to absorb everyone else’s suffering. That experience mirrored my recent spiritual overwhelm—and reminded me that real service doesn’t mean sacrificing myself.

8️⃣ Service Without EvangelismI talk about the nuance of sharing from love vs. trying to save. Supporting others from a grounded, non-evangelical energy feels more authentic to me—especially when rooted in curiosity, not pressure.

9️⃣ Deep Roots, Heavy EnergyI reflect on my family’s multi-generational struggle, from immigration to incarceration, and how I’m learning to honor that lineage without carrying all its weight. I’m learning to support from respect—not rescue.

🔟 Back to Earth, Back to SelfAs I engage with cosmic teachings, I find solace in staying rooted—literally. Grounding tools, earth-based practices, and heart coherence keep me from floating off. It’s a tether to both my humanity and my purpose.

1️⃣1️⃣ Discernment & The Pattern of OvercommittingI share how I recently unenrolled from two programs—realizing that I had signed up from a place of mental excitement rather than true body-led desire. I’m learning that my sacral response lives in the moment—not the plan.

1️⃣2️⃣ The Role of AI in CreativityI reflect on a section of Dawson Church’s new book that discloses his use of AI. It made me consider my own relationship with AI, why transparency matters, and how creative collaboration—human or otherwise—can still be meaningful and ethical.

1️⃣3️⃣ Being a Citizen Scientist of My Own LifeInstead of chasing new certifications, I’m exploring what happens if I go deep with what I already know—like heart coherence. I’m running an experiment: what unfolds when I live in that state on purpose?

1️⃣4️⃣ The Call of Creative ExpressionPainting is calling me again. I talk about the magic of following a theme that keeps returning and how supporting local artists, businesses, and communities is part of my spiritual and creative path.

1️⃣5️⃣ The Podcast as a Living RecordThis podcast isn’t a traditional format—it’s a long, evolving voice note. A soulcast*. A public processing tool. I talk about what it means to not always know where it’s going and to let it be what it is.

*chatGPT came up with this term not me, but i dig it and will probably keep it!

🌀 The Bottom Line: It’s All EvolvingLetting go is hard, especially when it’s a dream you once clung to. But letting go isn’t failure—it’s the compost for what’s next. This episode is about softening, grounding, opening, and trusting that your own life is the field you get to tend.

Mentions & Resourcesnot affiliated, just a fan

💖 HeartMath Institute – Research on coherence, personal & collective📿 Yoga Tantra & Dzogchen – Philosophy and energy practices guiding my unfolding📘 The Heart of Meditation by the Dalai Lama – Book that cracked something open🎨 Local LA Artists – Support your community by buying local📚 Spiritual Intelligence by Dawson Church – A look at blending science, soul, and AI🛠️ Prompt Engineering – AI can be useful if used with integrity and intention🎤 This Podcast – One long, curious unfolding. Thanks for being in it with me.

❤️ Core Message: The dreams you’re letting go of might be the very things making space for something more true. Trust the unfolding. Let the earth hold you. You are not behind—you are becoming.

Feeling blessed and grateful for all the people in my life <3

Mystically,

Belle

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