Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir

Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir

By Tara BoyceEducationSelf-Improvement
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Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir episodes

  • The Bottle and The Borderline
    Stumbling upon a book about Borderline Personality Disorder. It seemed to explain everything! Impulsivity, unstable relationships, mood swings, feelings of emptiness, self destructive behavior, troubles navigating identity... Well maybe BPD could be my identity! But you know what else leads to impulsivity, unstable relationships, feelings of emptiness, mood swings, problems with identity, outbursts of anger, self-destructive behaviours, and the very real likelihood that people might end up ab...
    34 min
  • When It Was All Supposed To Happen
    So the 'S' word... no, not the one referring to bodily functions, but SPIRITUALITY. There. I said it. This episode breaks down my still rather dubious relationship with the word itself, but the ways in which embracing the principles behind it, as I understand them, (and even the ways I DON'T understand them) has aided in my recovery and life in general, if I stop being so hung up on having to have all the answers, because really, no one does.In the memoir, time to hoot and holler at one of th...
    32 min
  • But Everybody's Doing It!
    It’s easy to obscure a drinking problem when everyone else drinks. It was all happening in plain sight. It wasn’t a PROBLEM! I was nineteen! I liked to PARTY! And so did EVERYONE ELSE! In this chapter I drift further into denial when drinking is normalized by friends, family and a culture that thinks drinking is just the obvious way to have a good time. It also delves into the awkwardness and anxiety of trying to convince myself I was having a good time when I was really just desperate to be ...
    34 min
  • Addicted to Love... Or whatever THAT was...
    It turns out the best antidote to rapidly declining mental health is becoming completely obsessed with someone who just isn't that into you, and putting the power of your salvation in their indifferent hands.I never did learn the rules of intimacy and sexuality, so I just figured I'd make up my own, and enacted relationships in my own head that served as powerful stimulants, sedatives and sometimes full on hallucinogenics. This episode also talks about concurrent mental health concerns, and t...
    37 min
  • Oops, I Did It Again!
    Relapse. The most confounding process in addiction. Why do we keep doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results? How do we rationalize this process when we KNOW BETTER? What kind of lies do we tell ourselves and others? More importantly, how can we interrupt this devastating pattern, by cutting it in the early stages of relapse planning to outsourcing out better judgment to the resources we have at hand, putting the odds more in our favor.This episode also explores som...
    31 min
  • Disgraced Drama Queen
    Addicted To Recovery : The Interactive Memoir Episode 4: What does it really mean to drink alone as opposed to with other people? Drinking with others was still, essentially, how I was trying to manage my own mind, not other people's. For me, it was an indication that the relationship I had with my mind had become more strained than the most forced social situations. I figured alcohol could force us to get along the same way it had with various frenemies over the years. It had the opposite ef...
    31 min
  • Things Fall Apart
    Addicted To Recovery : The Interactive Memoir Episode 3: When did I know I had a problem? What are the red flags? In my case it was muddled by a personality that enjoyed the chaos, and thought drinking was just an extension of being a bit more dramatic than everyone else. In chapter three, we flash forward again to the onset of alcoholic drinking, as I struggled to process a loss while trying to cut it at a challenging performing arts school. Unable to manage my emotions I took to day d...
    32 min
  • The Perils of Perfectionism
    I certainly had a lot of the 'isms' of alcoholism before I even touched a drink. My personality was fertile ground for disorders to develop even as a child.Reflections on how perfectionism limits living a full life, the beliefs behind it, and a few strategies I use to talk myself out of it. Audiobook Chapter 2: The Thoughts, goes through childhood anxieties and developing cognitive distortions.Please send questions, comments or just say ‘hi’ [email protected]://www.fa...
    32 min
  • Introduction and Chapter 1
    A harrowing journey of decades of mental illness and alcoholism, and the eventual redemption. I learned the hard way, so maybe you don't have to!This episode includes an introduction to the format, some recovery talk and chapter one of the addiction memoir.Please send questions, comments or just say ‘hi’ [email protected]://www.facebook.com/groups/156764336366378If you like what I’m doing and find it useful or entertaining, recommend it to a friend, subscribe, rate it, shar...
    27 min

About Addicted to Recovery: The Interactive Memoir

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Warning: This might be hard to hear. It was hard to LIVE. Having an honest dialogue about what active addiction was like isn’t pretty, but I’m hoping that even if you come for the train wreck…