A raw reflection on anhedonia after addiction—why nothing feels good, the crash of 4-MMC binges, and the small daily rituals that slowly rebuilt joy and life.

Chapters:

0:00 – Introduction

0:03 – Anhedonia: when nothing feels good

1:55 – The morning after a binge

3:33 – The spiral and two painful choices

4:50 – Long recovery and lingering effects

6:06 – Not suicidal, just bored of life

7:00 – Fragility of the body in early recovery

9:58 – Daily rituals for healing

11:19 – You’re not alone in this

12:00 – Belief, relapse, and self-healing