Read after listening:

This was about a month ago- this recording. 

I think I've figured it out- it's just an energy difference- which is why i was seeing this over and over- an energetic state that I've deepened in since. 

I think what happened was when I asked my mom about if the delivery guy could come inside- the energetic state I was in, was not as confident as the one I've deepened into currently. It is not really what we say but how we say it- and the how really is the energy- i don't know if it would have changed the decision or the outcome- the energy seems to be in its own category and it's tricky to know any other difference- other than the way we feel and our inner experience.