Think I figured out how these magicians do it- enter large tanks of water in shackles. 

I can't fully be mad

just letting it flow

The Natural Return to Life- who would have thunk it lol. 

Much has changed. Can now see the fear based identity and the mistake. This evening my brother came and was calling my mom. Fear rose in the voice of saying, "She's in the shower." But I didn't. Fear only arises when I don't become the fear. How interesting. Mom came home an hour before and was talking to her nonstop- fear arose again when I didn't continue the conversation- it's like something said/knew this is "too much"- she's gonna think something about your new personality. The fear is there. It's in the body. Thank God life allows us the process to work it out, and to become it slowly. All of life is an awakening. If you've been on the journey with me, listen to this- about pleasing and waking up from a lifetime of distorting. 

lots of love-

may the truth and clarity be yours-

Zakia <3 

Accessing flow state in each moment of love means is found in approaching each moment with joy. 

A point comes when what worked more than anything works less than anything...

Exhaustion is the hand of God too. It's all from the place of love. 

the loneliness. the awakeness. the presence. only god's strength makes it possible