This is a transmission, not a lesson. It invites direct experience over explanation. The speaker is pointing beyond mind, beyond self, into the infinite silence of what is—and into the mystery of being God, as God, in God’s play.

A profound spiritual monologue exploring the nature of existence, mind, illusion, awakening, and ultimately God-realization. It’s poetic, nonlinear, and philosophically dense—less of a structured teaching and more of a stream-of-consciousness spiritual expression.

🕸️ The Core Thread: Connection

• Connection is the central theme and motivation behind all desires, struggles, and suffering.
• It is not just emotional or relational, but existential—the desire to reunite with the divine, the truth, the whole.

🧠 The Mind as Illusion

• The mind does not know and cannot know reality.
• It generates confusion and illusion, creating a false sense of self and understanding.
• Thoughts appear spontaneously—there is no thinker.
• The belief that "you" are thinking is the central illusion.
• True seeing comes only with distance from thought.

🌌 The Nature of Reality

• Reality is not comprehensible. It lies beyond thought, beyond language, beyond perception.
• What we call “here” is everywhere. What we see is only the mind’s interpretation.
• To grasp truth, you must abandon all mental constructs: time, identity, knowledge, desire, even perception.

✨ The Divine and the Awakening

• Awakening is the realization that you are God.
• Not metaphorically, but experientially. Not as ego inflation, but as ego dissolution.
• The divine reveals itself in silent presence, in everyday moments, like watching a tree or hearing the wind.
• The divine rejoices in itself, through you, through everything.

🌿 The Shift: From Illusion to Experience

• Spiritual realization isn't about learning something new, but waking up from what you thought was true.
• When the mind subsides, clarity is no longer intellectual—it’s embodied.
• The senses open up: leaves, trees, light—everything becomes divine phenomena.

🌀 The Human Self After Awakening

• After awakening, the human self continues to act, but in ways beyond personal control or preference.
• Even confusion, rebellion, or contradiction is part of God’s unfolding.
• Personal identity becomes meaningless, behavior no longer needs tracking.
• Everything, even what appears “unspiritual,” is still God expressing itself.

☀️ Nonduality & Oneness

• There is only one—God, existence, the divine.
• All beings are not just from God; they are God in equal measure.
• There is no hierarchy, no true separation—just the illusion of it.

🔄 Delusion and Divine Play

• Suffering arises from a deluded “I” that seeks to change others or the world.
• This “I” is part of God’s divine spell—a necessary illusion.
• Even after awakening, one remains in the play—but now with awareness of its divine nature.

💫 Final Understanding

• True understanding is not intellectual—it is unspeakable, unimaginable, uncontainable.
• Science seeks limits, but the divine has none. It is the

In this deeply raw and empowering episode, Zakia opens up about her lifelong journey from emotional struggle and dissociation to presence, purpose, and power. She reflects on the early pain of losing her father, the invisible burden of absorbing her mother’s emotions, and years spent chasing happiness without understanding why it felt so unreachable. After discovering the roots of her suffering—fear, disconnection, and the belief that she wasn’t enough—Zakia shares the profound transformation that began in her mid-thirties. Through healing, presence, and spiritual awakening, she reclaimed her truth and now stands in full authority. This episode is a rallying call for anyone who feels lost, unseen, or stuck in fear. Zakia reminds you: joy is your birthright, power is your nature, and now is the time to step fully into who you were born to be.

Back for another ride- full circle. One and the same with full healing- isn't that what full healing is? A true okayness with the dark? An okayness with BEING the dark?

 The dark no longer considered, the dark-

In this episode of The Brilliant Mind, Zakia reflects on a group meeting after years of navigating identity dissolution alone. It is the first time she is in the company of those who have an understanding or at least know how unexplainable this process is. She feels energized after the meeting, but also wonders if she made it alone until this point because of her deep need for acceptance, approval and to be understood by others- all things she had to let go of and be conpletely alone on this journey. 

She shares insights on the nature of the self, the mind’s need for control, and the deep surrender that comes with embracing the unknown. Through personal stories of transformation, misunderstandings, and letting go of the need to be understood, this episode explores the freedom that arises when beliefs and identities dissolve.

There is only one thing that allowed her to trust and stand alone. 

Tune in to find out what that is- and for a raw and introspective conversation on the nature of awakening, the end of internal conflict, and what it means to settle into the unknown.

In this episode of The Brilliant Mind, Zakia dives deep into the nature of self-perception, conditioning, and the profound shifts that come with inner work. She explores how certainty can be a sign of a closed mind, while true openness allows for a spacious, fluid experience of life.

Through raw personal reflection, Zakia discusses the dissolution of identity—how letting go of who we think we are also frees us from rigid expectations of others. She unpacks the subtle yet powerful ways conditioning shapes our interactions, how we often listen through the filter of what we expect to hear rather than what is actually being said, and what it means to truly be present.

This episode is an invitation to step beyond definitions, beyond the stories we tell ourselves, and into a space of deep clarity and aliveness.

Listen in as we explore:
✨ The difference between certainty and openness
✨ How conditioning blocks us from fully feeling life
✨ Mourning the illusions of self and relationships
✨ The energetic release that comes with inner work
✨ Living in full presence—beyond definitions and expectations

If you’ve ever felt the weight of identity or wondered what’s on the other side of self-concept, this episode is for you.

🔹 Follow The Brilliant Mind for more deep explorations into consciousness, clarity, and personal transformation.

In this episode, we explore the intricate and often elusive nature of personal identity and its relationship with the mind. The personal identity, with its constant commentary, assumptions, and grasp for control, is an entity that forms as a result of being alive. But what happens when this personal identity begins to heal?

As we delve into the dissolution of personal identity, we uncover the profound realization that there is no entity truly in control—only an illusion that we have mistaken for ourselves. This episode examines how healing this identity leads to clarity, presence, and an experience of life beyond the mind’s constant narration.

The conversation touches on the irony of trying to control the mind, the necessity of surrender, and the ultimate power of being undisturbed by mental chatter. By examining personal experiences of shifting energy, increased fluency in speech, and newfound spaciousness in awareness, we begin to understand what it means to exist beyond the confines of personal conditioning.

Through reflections on presence, perception, and shedding conditioned ways of being, this episode invites you to question your own relationship with your mind. What would life be like without the weight of personal identity? And how does true freedom emerge when the need to control dissolves? Join us as we navigate the journey from personal entanglement to expansive awareness.

The discussion explores the nature of personal identity, ego, and presence. The speaker describes how thoughts create a continuous narrative about one's experiences, forming a personal identity that structures perception and self-concept. However, this identity can dissolve, particularly in experiences of deep presence or spiritual awakening.

The speaker recounts a transformative experience of oneness at age 34, where their usual sense of self disappeared, leaving only a boundless energetic awareness. In this state, there were no thoughts constructing a personal identity—only presence, a deep connection to everything, and a visceral sense of energy rather than mental activity. This shift fundamentally altered their perception, making even ordinary moments, like gazing at the kitchen stove, feel vibrantly alive and full of movement.

They describe how this dissolution of identity is neither good nor bad—it simply happens as part of life’s unfolding. The personal identity, which arises around age two or three, functions as an organizing force but can also create tension and suffering. Its dissolution, while gradual, can bring a lightness, a loosening of the need for control, and an ease in allowing life to unfold naturally.

The speaker also observes how thought processes change over time, sometimes appearing as a delayed reaction rather than the initiator of action. This growing awareness highlights how the mind attempts to construct meaning retroactively, revealing its role in shaping subjective reality. Through continued presence and relaxation into this new way of being, the speaker experiences a decreasing sense of attachment to thoughts and desires, leading to greater flexibility, playfulness, and an overall reduction in suffering.

This episode invites listeners to consider their own relationship with personal identity, thought, and presence, and to explore what it means to live with less identification with the mind’s constant storytelling.

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The speaker reflects on the nature of thought, realizing how a single moment of egoic fear can generate an entire mental world—a chain reaction of thoughts and narratives that feel real but are ultimately just noise. They describe how their personal identity was once entangled in these thought loops, constantly creating meaning and clinging to knowledge, but now they see that all of it must dissolve to allow true presence.

Through recent experiences, they’ve recognized that much of their suffering stemmed from identifying with this personal world. Letting go of that identification has brought a deep sense of peace, clarity, and spaciousness. They discuss how this transformation has changed their relationship with desire—desires now arise from joy rather than need. They no longer feel gripped by compulsion, whether it’s eating, cleaning, or seeking external validation.

The speaker acknowledges that fears still arise, but they no longer have the same power. They observe these fears as passing thoughts rather than truths that dictate their experience. They also embrace the unknown in a new way—before, they were blind in delusion, but now they are blind in truth, fully surrendering to life’s unfolding without needing control.

This process of awakening has been the most difficult yet profound experience of their life. They wonder about the nature of this transformation—whether it’s a spiritual journey home, the mind returning to its natural state, or an integration of the ego into the true self. They ultimately embrace the mystery, finding beauty in not knowing.