You can trace any personal story that's sticky back to your conditioned root. 

Energy has manifested in this body a million different ways. Now, even with thought gone, the vibration can be felt in the body. The personal energy has cleared so much- that at any moment, I can choose to pay attention to the body and I'll feel the sensation of energy that's moving through it or vibrating through it, through each call all the time. 

How is this possible? 

Once upon a time, all I'd be aware of was an occasional sensation of anxiety- I'm sure I experienced it more than I actually paid attention to. 

Sitting and meditating for one year was the beginning of my attention to myself. After that first year, something strange happened and totally unexpected- the warm wash anxiety had concentrated into a single point where I'd most experienced anxiety my whole- my stomach. Then began the energetic contractions. 

Ive' since become aware of energy in a way I never had been. 

Because I now felt it in my body- moving and could trace it's movement. 

With so much of the personal energy gone-

A different energy started to pervade- the vibration of being that had been covered up had now been freed. 

I still often wonder about the bizarrity of this sensation of vibration in the body. Still sometimes scared, and just so new to all of it. 

If you're experiencing it too, please reach out. 

Sending love, today, and always

Zakia

The storyline is literally made of limiting beliefs. 

Every thought that is playing- when you see it, you recognize is actually a limiting belief- not just the general statements we know to be limiting belief like "I can" or "can't".

But everything nuanced and specific. 

Pay attention. 

The quickest, most effective, most sustaining way to change our children's behavior or anyone's for that matter, is by doing the work on ourselves to be clear and present to make sure we are not coming from our our wounding. 

Until we do this work- our wounding is enmeshed deeply into us and we are unable to tell and of course control our own behavior. That's what the wound/trauma does- it controls you because at one point, it was absolutely necessary for your survival to be this way. 

The thing is, you're not that 4 year old or that partner in that abusive relationship anymore. But your mind doesn't know this until you heal. 

Until you heal, your mind continues to interpret new situations as the old. 

And then it takes over. In a moment, you become hijacked- your behavior completely changes. 

Our children, parents, and partners, and those closest to us are the first line of our awakeners. They will consistently trigger us (an act of grace really) so that we can WAKE UP and look at ourselves. 

Are you ready to do the work? Let's do it together. 

When you start to understand how it works, you see that it was born out of an unnatural place and is just a specific way of telling the story that is not needed. 

In this episode we talk about stepping outside of yourself to help another human being effectively- what does that mean?

Reflecting on what this means and how it's different than being a "mirror." 

Affirming again- the mind's narrator is rooted in fear. 

I didn't know this was a part of the process- something happens when you heal enough to where you don't just stop at neutrality- you become the antidote for the suffering that you formerly experienced- and you serve as this medicine for others.