This is the first song I ever wrote. At the time I was camping on the beach at Padre Island and feeling pretty down but this song helped. I explain what led up to the song on Episode 11 of my podcast Adventures of Andrew B.
Here I go, leaving home, again.
Say goodbye, to the oldest friends.
Won't look back, won't turn around.
My feet move fast,
When they hit the ground.
Please don't miss me, when I'm gone.
It hurts too much, but I know that's wrong to want.
There's distance now,
Im far away.
You've got snow,
And I've got waves.
Everything seems different,
I'm starting to change.
But who will I be,
When my inside rearrange?
I pray it's something better,
Better than before.
This echo inside of me,
Is one I can't ignore.
Maybe, just maybe.
I'll find something that will change me.
Maybe, just maybe.
I'll find something that will change me.
I'm not really sure,
What I'm doing here.
I'm alone again,
With all my fear.
And I know it never helps,
But I'll have another beer.
And another, and another.
I'm waking up,
To a clear blue sky.
But I can't shake these clouds,
From my mind.
Somethings wrong,
And I don't know why,
I tell myself,
All these lies.
And if this is what I wanted,
Why am I so scared?
Cause the change you're looking for,
Searching for,
Is rare.
Maybe, just maybe,
I'll find something that will change me.
Maybe, just maybe,
I'll find something that will save me