Arielle and I met at the ayahuasca retreat in 2023. In this conversation we talk about her experience with chronic illness, what led her to ayahuasca, and a experience of profound heartbreak in the aftermath. We also talk about being disconnected from the body, learning to let go of perfectionism, and reclaiming creativity.

Arielle is a Peabody and GLAAD-nominated television writer and producer whose career has spanned Netflix, Prime Video, FOX, and Disney+. You can connect with her and her work on instagram at @she.is.that.

Arielle is a 6/2 emotional generator and Virgo rising, Virgo sun, and Libra moon.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

In this conversation, I speak with my old friend, Lesley Dudden, about the impact of the loss of her mom to cancer in her 20s after previously losing her father to ALS in her early teens.

We talk about the haze of decision making after grief, why she has some regrets about that time, the Piscean desire to escape reality, and how her identity has changed in the years since.

Lesley is a Cancer Rising, Pisces Sun, and Sagittarius Moon and a 6/2 emotional projector.

You can connect with Lesley at @lesleykdudden

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

In this conversation, Krysten Vazquez, who co-organized the trip to Peru where I first took ayahuasca, joins me to talk about the the decision to get divorced about a year after getting married. We talk about coping with severe anxiety, learning to trust your intuition, and reclaiming parts of the self we sometimes lose in the adulthood.

You can connect with Krysten's work at ⁠elfaritohealing.com⁠ or ⁠@elfaritohealing⁠.

Krysten is a Taurus Rising, Taurus Sun, and Capricorn Moon and a 2/4 sacral generator.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

This is sort of a season one finale episode and teaser for season two. I didn't edit this one because I knew if I tried I wouldn't release it. So please forgive any imperfections in the audio. I talk about how creating and releasing the podcast has helped me let go of certain fears I've carried most of my life. I also put out a call to anyone who might be interested in sharing a story for the next season.

Music by ⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠

You can email me at [email protected] or connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com.

In this conversation, Amanda Vazquez, who co-organized the trip to Peru where I first took ayahuasca, joins me to talk about the reality shifting experience of taking plant medicine for the first time. We also dive into reclaiming her indigeneity, facing tendencies of perfectionism, meeting our unpleasant emotions, and letting go of old stories.

You can connect with Amanda's work at elfaritohealing.com or @elfaritohealing.

Amanda is a Cancer Rising, Gemini Sun, and Virgo Moon and a 5/1 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Amalia and I have known each other for a little while now and they come on the podcast to talk about their decision to leave their job as a therapist. We get into practicing letting go, navigating the void, trusting the cycles of life, and the advantages and disadvantages of making meaning out of what happens.

You can email Amalia at [email protected] to connect about astrology, human design, tarot, and saturn return readings. 

Amalia is a Taurus Rising, Aquarius Sun, and Pisces Moon and a 4/6 emotional generator.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Patrick and I talk about how a sudden job loss thrust him into a long process of facing his addictions, specifically his relationship to alcohol. We also talk about learning to sit with big emotions, the importance of community support in healing, and finding compassion for yourself and others.

You can connect with Patrick at @pattydommodouls and @thirdhousetopics.

Patrick is Virgo rising, Gemini sun, and Scorpio moon and 3/6 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

Dani joins the podcast to talk about her decision to quit drinking alcohol in 2017 and her subsequent recovery process. We get into the role of shame in addiction, integrating the shadow side, and why AA isn't for everyone.

Dani is a integral coach, recovery guide, writer, and facilitator. You can connect with her joinselfmade.co and on instagram @joinselfmade.

Dani is a Pisces Sun, Aries Rising, and Cancer Moon and a 1/3 emotional manifestor.

Music by ⁠⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

So this is my story. It was about my journey to find a new home after I felt the need to leave New York in January 2022. It includes a lot of travel and two life-changing experiences with ayahuasca.

I'm a Leo Rising, Taurus Sun, Pisces Moon and I'm a 5/1 emotional projector.

Music by ⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com

This conversation Noah talks about the decision to leave a relationship and then immediately go into a three month silent meditation retreat. We talk about following our instincts, living in the unknown, and dealing with doubt.

You can connect with Noah on ig @noahsouderrusso⁠⁠ and www.iamnsr.com

Noah is a Cancer Rising, Virgo Sun, and Taurus Moon and a 1/4 splenic projector.

Music by ⁠@noahsouderrusso⁠

You can connect with me at ⁠⁠tolandlawrence.com