Darren is running on empty after a full Sunday at church — music, lights, people, and a bandwidth that only goes so far. Overstimulation is real, and he's still recovering. On top of that, unexpected gifts and words of encouragement from his pastor have left him struggling to find the right words to respond — not out of ingratitude, but because he's always been more comfortable giving than receiving, and articulating that kind of gratitude while already drained is its own challenge.
He's also still in the thick of the ongoing frustration with his therapist not fully seeing what he sees in himself — the masking, the late-presenting ADHD and autism symptoms, the language and articulation difficulties that get dismissed because the checklist doesn't catch what years of masking covers up.
But there's something shifting too. He's getting things back. The love for reading — working through Michael Connelly's The Poet, with the Lincoln Lawyer, The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo, and two Alex Cross books by James Patterson waiting in the queue. The love for investigative storytelling. The research into his grandfather's military service. And the Unsolved Case Files cold cases he's been working through, one weekend at a time. He's putting pieces together — in the books, in the cases, and in himself.
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