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Lyrics:

As blood drips down my wrist

I guess things took a darker twist

I look at myself

I've invited demons off the shelf

I know that you want me dead

One day you'll take my breath

Until there's nothing left

No heartbeat in my chest

If I keep going on like this

Sinking my life into the abyss

I've lied to the ones I love

I'm reaching out to God above

Living through this disease

Has brought me down to my knees

I can finally see

You have ensnared me

I feel like you've possessed me

Every drinking spree ends in misery

It was all so fun at first

Now I'm headed into a hearse

You want to push me off the ledge

I know you want me dead

Yet I drink, and drink, and drink

Vomit, and bleed, and cry, and writhe

This has become my life

So many times I've given up

When will this ever fucking stop?

Pouring this poison in my cup

Drinking like it's never enough

I know that you want me dead

One day you'll take my breath

Until there's nothing left

No heartbeat in my chest

If I keep going on like this

Sinking my life into the abyss

I've lied to the ones I love

I'm reaching out to God above

Living through this disease

Has brought me down to my knees

I can finally see

You have ensnared me

I'm gonna get some help

Before my future melts

When will I learn from the past?

Every relapse hurts more than the last

I don't want to die like this

I don't even want to live like this

There is no more bliss

This time I really gotta quit

I know that you want me dead

One day you'll take my breath

Until there's nothing left

No heartbeat in my chest

If I keep going on like this

Sinking my life into the abyss

I've lied to the ones I love

I'm reaching out to God above

Living through this disease

Has brought me down to my knees

I can finally see

You have ensnared me

As of now, I haven't drank in years

But this is how shitty it can be

I got outside help, and through that, even divine intervention

If you were looking for a sign to get some help, this might be it

I wrote most of "The Sick EP" during my drinking days

Admittedly, I recorded the vocals and released it when I was already sober

I felt weird about it, but the songs were stories of how I lived and experiences I had while mostly living in denial

This song is the darker side of that lifestyle

After I wrote about those fun times, came the bleeding and the dark thoughts

I think I wrote the intro of "Sick" way later, once I was sober and saw my past denial