By the time i was 21 I needed to give up a plethora of inappropriate behaviors. Food was my drug of choice. 

My dad paid me for every pound I lost.

I could present well but hated myself on the inside regardless of how I looked.

I raised my hand for my 'First 30 days' for 4 months.

Finally i have not had sugar since 1985

I was sober for 4 years but my world was grey because of my food.

I thought OA abstinence would be a daily struggle to not eat.

I no longer hate myself. There is more to improve but now it is because I love  self enough to change.

My higher power took away the self hate causing me to eat sugar.