Stephanie Dalfonzo (Anxiety Expert, Women's Leadership Coach, and Certified Hypnotist) gives us simple free tools to process anxiety and PTSD / PTS (post-tramatic stress), applicable for entrepreneurs, survivors, and anyone else living/working in high-stress situations.

Watch, listen, and be inspired by an amazing woman who helped remedy Torah's lifelong lower back problem caused by childhood trauma.

Factoid: Stephanie's first career was as Celebrity Radio DJ Stevie Knox.

This episode opens with an introduction by Torah.

ACTION STEPS:

1. Take the free ACE quiz to assess your level of risk for trauma and other anxieties.

2. Download Stephanie's free guide "5 Ways to Calm Anxiety" at www.StephanieDalfonzo.com

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

A variety of tools and tips to store in your arsenal for processing anxiety (whether you're a survivor or entrepreneur)

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Connect with Stephanie:

www.StephanieDalfonzo.com

PART 2: Mary Byler is one of less than a dozen cases [we're still fact-checking this number] of Amish sexual assault on public record. The focus of our conversation is on not so much the details of Mary's heinous ordeals but on very simple things that everyone can say and do that don't take any effort or resources + make *massive* differences to sexual assault survivors.

Watch, listen, and be inspired by a truly powerful woman who has been through the fires of hell a million times over.

ACTION STEPS:

Mary's story aired on ABC's 20/20 in December of 2004. Read "Sexual Abuse Within the Amish Community" at http://abcnews.go.com/2020/story?id=2365919

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

How Mary defines forgiveness and how society needs to change in terms of sexual assault

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Connect with Mary:

www.facebook.com/mary.a.byler

Mary Byler is one of less than a dozen cases [we're still fact-checking this number] of Amish sexual assault on public record. The focus of our conversation is on not so much the details of Mary's heinous ordeals but on the effects of sexual assault 13 years later and the one simple thing anyone and everyone can do that will help a victim-survivor more than you'll ever know.

Watch, listen, and be inspired by a truly powerful woman who has been through the fires of hell a million times over.

This episode opens with a special introduction by Torah on the new vision and mission of this show based on the feedback we got from the pilot run (Season 1, originally titled Turning Tragedies into Triumphs).

ACTION STEPS:

Mary's story aired on ABC's 20/20 in December of 2004. Read "Sexual Abuse Within the Amish Community" at http://abcnews.go.com/2020/story?id=2365919

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

How Mary defines forgiveness and how society needs to change in terms of sexual assault

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Connect with Mary:

www.facebook.com/mary.a.byler

Part 4: Jeselle Hadley-Bacon is a chef, clean foods advocate and sexual abuse survivor. This final installment ends on a remarkably positive note. Despite the terrible atrocities and darkness of her childhood and young adult years (recounted in the prior episodes), Jeselle found love and is now guided by a philosophy that’s about personal freedom. Her husband introduced her to other ways of thinking, such as Rumi. Jeselle believes that those who commit crimes should pay for their actions now, but if that doesn’t happen for any reason, the universe will balance the scales. Karma will come around.

Jeselle is one of the rare converts into the Amish church—but has since left. She moved to the Ovid, MI Amish community shortly after Torah escaped from that same community (Torah’s non-practicing Amish parents Henry and Ida Bontrager still live in Ovid).

Today Jeselle focuses her energy on balancing her body and life through gut health, clean foods, and positive living. She is sharing her journey as well as information, recipes and a community both locally in her home area and also via her “Healthy Jesey" Facebook page. She welcomes anyone who is interested to connect with her.

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM). In solidarity with #SAAM, we place their teal ribbon on some of our content each April. Teal is the official color of SAAM. The teal ribbon is the symbol of sexual violence prevention. Please read on for more information about #SAAM and how you can help and/or be helped as a survivor.

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PSA (PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT): This is the same Ovid, Michigan community Torah escaped from but Ben Girod now lives in Idaho. Everyone reading/watching this should be warned that Ben Girod actively condones rape and is a predator.

He is a textbook sociopath/psychopath and claims to—literally—be receiving emails from God. He has resigned from the Old Order Amish church and runs a right-wing, fundamentalist, proselyting church in Idaho. He claims to be the reincarnation of Moses from the Bible. He also claims that the Amish are the “lost tribe of Israel” and he has made a trip(s) to Israel claiming to speak on behalf of all the Amish, something he has neither the right nor authority to do.

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- Jeselle’s views on forgiveness and God

- How Jeselle’s husband helped her personal growth

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Healthy Jesey (Jeselle’s clean foods startup): www.facebook.com/JeseyBs

Grief Recovery Method (for physical and emotional losses, to find grief support groups and for a free ebook for info on the various kinds of grief): www.griefrecoverymethod.com

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/chat if you’ve been violated.

See S1Ep12: Jeselle Hadley-Bacon on the Long-Term Affects of Sexual Assault, Feeling Like “Damaged Goods”, Tainting the Amish Bloodline and “Turning the Other Cheek” to Sexual Perpetrators for the Amish family that were genuinely loving toward Jeselle

See S1Ep14: Jeselle Hadley-Bacon on How Sexual Assault Is Handled By the Church: An Amish Bishop Ben Girod Accuses Her of Seducing Her Stepfather and “Fornicating” and “Committing Adultery with a Married Man” for the Amish “blame the victims; protect the perpetrators” attitude toward sexual assault

See S1Ep10: Elam Zook on Finding His Way, Himself, and His Purpose; the Lesbian Mother Who Helped Him Own His Amish Identity; and Why “Ex-Amish” Is a Problematic Term

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Connect with Jeselle:

www.facebook.com/JeseyBs

Part 2: Erika W. is a weight and wellness coach and a very recent sexual abuse survivor. This is Erika’s commentary on her first recorded conversation with Torah. They both have some very important feedback on the post-assault process that is very helpful and educational for viewers, survivors and supporters of survivors. This part ends on a very hopeful, positive note.

PLEASE watch Part 1 (Episode 16) where Erika shares her story on film for the first time. It just so turns out that that is Torah’s very first time to release her story on film, too, so we are seeing a dual debut.

We will continue checking in with Erika throughout this season to document her journey. This is a very rare opportunity to see what a survivor goes through from the very beginning––the immediate aftermath of assault––and how the process plays out over time. We hope that you continue to come back and refer to this story, as well as all our other survivors’ stories, as an educational resource and to help spread awareness about the facts of our assault impacts us.

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM). In solidarity with #SAAM, we place their teal ribbon on some of our content each April. Teal is the official color of SAAM. The teal ribbon is the symbol of sexual violence prevention. Please read on for more information about #SAAM and how you can help and/or be helped as a survivor.

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IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- Erika and Torah discuss why it’s important to tell others (whether publicly or privately) about our stories: we need to speak or the trauma and grief will remain stuck in the cells of our bodies and cripple us.

- The rare opportunity to record a story of a survivor in the immediate aftermath of assault

- The shame and self-blame Erika felt while processing the aftermath of assault

- How sharing her story with Torah has helped Erika release fears of judgment, process her traumas, and feel lighter

- The patterns of survivors that Erika has noticed when sharing her story with others––patterns that have helped her become more free of self-judgment and fearing others’ judgments

- AND rape is NEVER the victim/survivor’s fault! Our society needs to STOP blaming the victim and letting the perpetrators roam free on this planet. Rape/sexual assault is NEVER okay and should NEVER go unpunished.

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Sexual Assault Awareness Month (for info about SAAM, sexual assault on college campuses, and their work. The NSVRC/SAAM team is available for interviews and is a resource for reporting on sexual violence): www.nsvrc.org/saam/about; 877-739-3895; [email protected]. Call/email for help.

Grief Recovery Method (for physical and emotional losses, to find grief support groups and for a free ebook for info on the various kinds of grief): www.griefrecoverymethod.com

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/chat if you’ve been violated.

Hold Me Right (a beautiful documentary about the aftermath of sexual assault; check out the trailer): www.holdmerightfilm.com

See S1Ep16: Erika W. on the Immediate Aftermath of Sexual Assault & Torah’s Story On Film for the First Time + Is Rape Co-Creative? for the common patterns of shame and self-blame a survivor goes through

See S1Ep18: Sarah Alexis on How to Make Art Out of Darkness: Writing and Speaking Poetry for a 1-minute audio-only episode with subtitles set to beautiful cherry blossoms and flowers

See S1Ep17: Brian Young on How Education Provided Him an Escape from Suicide and the Shocking High Rates of Suicide and Depression Among Native Americans for how trauma is woven into the DNA of Native Americans

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Sarah Alexis is an interior and set designer and a sexual abuse survivor. She reads a short poem for us that she wrote as a way to express what happened to her and to help release the trauma stored in her body. This 1-minute episode is audio-only with subtitles and set to beautiful cherry blossoms and flowers. We hear only her voice and music in the background.

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM). In solidarity with #SAAM, we have placed their teal ribbon on this month’s episodes. Teal is the official color of SAAM. The teal ribbon is the symbol of sexual violence prevention. Please read the episode synopsis for more information about #SAAM and how you can help and/or be helped as a survivor.

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LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

1. Sexual Assault Awareness Month (for info about SAAM, sexual assault on college campuses, and their work. The NSVRC/SAAM team is available for interviews and is a resource for reporting on sexual violence): www.nsvrc.org/saam/about; 877-739-3895; [email protected]. Call/email for help.

2. Grief Recovery Method (for physical and emotional losses, to find grief support groups and for a free ebook for info on the various kinds of grief): www.griefrecoverymethod.com

3. RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/chat if you’ve been violated.

4. Hold Me Right (a beautiful documentary about the aftermath of sexual assault; check out the trailer): www.holdmerightfilm.com

5. See S1Ep17: Brian Young on How Education Provided Him an Escape from Suicide and the Shocking High Rates of Suicide and Depression Among Native Americans for a message of hope

6. See S1Ep16: Erika W. on the Immediate Aftermath of Sexual Assault & Torah’s Story On Film for the First Time + Is Rape Co-Creative? for insights on what goes through a survivor’s mind

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Part 3: Brian Young is a filmmaker and MFA Writing for Fiction candidate at Columbia University, speaks fluent Navajo, and is currently writing a novel based on his native Navajo culture. He’s also the editor for this podcast.

Brian is full-blooded Navajo with a BA in Film Studies from Yale University. He grew up in an isolated community, much like Torah, on his Navajo reservation in the Southwestern part of the United States. Brian left the reservation to better himself with education and found himself in many fish-out-of-water scenarios.

He is the founder and producer of the YouTube video series, Yeego Nitl’aa, the first 100% Navajo-language physical fitness film series. One of Brian’s passions is to raise the profile on the beyond extreme mental health conditions of his people and offer practical tools on how to become a happier person through fitness.

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- That Native nations have become genetically predisposed to depression from trans-generational traumas inflicted by the European invasion of the land that is known today as the United States of America

- How trauma is woven into the DNA of Native Americans

- How Brian escaped killing himself when he was a teen

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Find Brian on Twitter: @hungrynavajo

Yeego Nitl’aa (Brian’s physical fitness video series on YouTube): www.youtube.com/user/YeegoNitLaa

For general information about the Navajo People: http://navajopeople.org

The United States Department of the Interior’s Bureau of Indian Affairs (BIA) for the US position on Native Americans: www.bia.gov/FAQs

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: Need help? Call 1-800-273-8255. 24/7, free and confidential support. www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Indian Country Today May 28, 2015 article ("Trauma May Be Woven Into DNA of Native Americans”): Download their free report, “Intergenerational Trauma: Understanding Natives’ Inherited Pain”, to understand this concept. www.indiancountrymedianetwork.com/news/native-news/trauma-may-be-woven-into-dna-of-native-americans

The Huffington Post December 19, 2016 article (“Native American Youth Suicide Rates Are At Crisis Levels”): www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/native-american-youth-suicide-rates-are-at-crisis-levels_us_560c3084e4b0768127005591

American Indian Movement (to help the Native People regain human rights and achieve restitutions and restorations): www.aimovement.org

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/chat if you’ve been violated.

See S1Ep13: Brian Young on Growing up Navajo on the Reservation Without Running Hot Water, Native American Identity Issues, the Doctrine of “Manifest Destiny” that Still Exists Today (e.g., the Dakota Access Pipeline), and Whitewashed US Academics for how both Brian and Torah’s pre-college schooling came from 1970s textbooks

See S1Ep15: Brian Young on the Origins of His Navajo People and Their Matriarchal Society, Torah’s Explanation on Why She Is Not a Feminist, and What Viewers Can Do to Stop the Dakota Access Pipeline (A Symbolic Wall) for an educated view on past and current Native American affairs

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

http://www.TorahBontrager.com

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Connect with Brian:

www.twitter.com/hungrynavajo

Erika W. is a weight and wellness coach and a very recent sexual abuse survivor. She shares her story on film for the first time. It just so turns out that this is Torah’s very first time to release her story on film, too, so we are seeing a dual debut. PLEASE watch Part 2 (a special release tomorrow) for Erika and Torah's commentary and follow-up to this first conversation. They both have some very important feedback on this first part in Part 2.

TRIGGER WARNING: This episode goes into more detail than previous episodes about a survivor's sexual assault. We are seeing the initial aftermath of sexual assault from its very beginning and documenting what a survivor feels and goes through over time as they process what has happened to them. Part 2 ends on a very hopeful, positive note. If you feel that Part 1 might be too triggering for you, please watch Part 2. It will help you as a survivor or empathizer.

We will continue checking in with Erika throughout this season to document her journey. This is a very rare opportunity to see what a survivor goes through from the very beginning––the immediate aftermath of assault––and how the process plays out over time. We hope that you continue to come back and refer to this story, as well as all our other survivors’ stories, as an educational resource and to help spread awareness about the facts of our assault impacts us.

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM). In solidarity with #SAAM, we place their teal ribbon on some of our content each April. Teal is the official color of SAAM. The teal ribbon is the symbol of sexual violence prevention. Please read on for more information about #SAAM and how you can help and/or be helped as a survivor.

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IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- For the first time, we will hear on film Torah’s story about her assault; Torah has been filmed before––she will appear on the upcoming documentary Hold Me Right–– but this is the very first footage to be released to the public

- How Torah hopes her memoir will help people

- What Erika is feeling in the immediate blur and shock of assault; her feelings of self-blame, inability to trust herself and sense of personal responsibility

- Erika’s attacker’s justifications and refusal to acknowledgment the crime he committed

- AND why rape is NOT co-creative!!! It is NEVER the victim/survivor’s fault! Our society needs to STOP blaming the victim and letting the perpetrators roam free on this planet. Rape/sexual assault is NEVER okay and should NEVER go unpunished.

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Sexual Assault Awareness Month (for info about SAAM, sexual assault on college campuses, and their work. The NSVRC/SAAM team is available for interviews and is a resource for reporting on sexual violence): www.nsvrc.org/saam/about; 877-739-3895; [email protected]. Call/email for help.

Grief Recovery Method (for physical and emotional losses, to find grief support groups and for a free ebook for info on the various kinds of grief): www.griefrecoverymethod.com

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/chat if you’ve been violated.

Hold Me Right (a beautiful documentary about the aftermath of sexual assault; check out the trailer): www.holdmerightfilm.com

See S1Ep17: Brian Young on How Education Provided Him an Escape from Suicide and the Shocking High Rates of Suicide and Depression Among Native Americans for a message of hope

See S1Ep14: Jeselle Hadley-Bacon on How Sexual Assault Is Handled By the Church: An Amish Bishop Ben Girod Accuses Her of Seducing Her Stepfather and “Fornicating” and “Committing Adultery with a Married Man” for an Amish convert’s disclosure on what goes on inside the Amish church

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Connect with Torah, speaker + memoir author of An Amish Girl in Manhattan: Escaping At Age 15, Breaking All the Rules, and Feeling Safe Again

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Part 2: Brian Young is a filmmaker and MFA Writing for Fiction candidate at Columbia University, speaks fluent Navajo, and is currently writing a novel based on his native Navajo culture. He’s also the editor for this podcast.

Brian breaks down his introduction in Part 1 to barely a very brief of even a glimpse of “Native American History 101” and explains his clan lineages, which are passed down through women. Brian shares the origin story of the Navajo and the Navajo philosophy that whenever you speak, draw/illustrate or think the name of a deity, you call that deity’s energy to you and it’s the same as if the deity were physically present.

This three-part installment leads to a discussion on why exactly water is so important and addresses the un-enforceability of the Native Peoples’ status as sovereign nations when they are under United States oppression. No country on this planet would come to the military aid of any Native nation, other than other Native nations who themselves have no military power against the US.

Brian is full-blooded Navajo with a BA in Film Studies from Yale University. He grew up in an isolated community, much like Torah, on his Navajo reservation in the Southwestern part of the United States. Brian left the reservation to better himself with education and found himself in many fish-out-of-water scenarios. He is the founder and producer of the YouTube video series, Yeego Nitl’aa, the first 100% Navajo-language physical fitness film series. One of Brian’s passions is to raise the profile on the beyond extreme mental health conditions of his people and offer practical tools on how to become a happier person through fitness.

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- The majority of Native tribes are matrilineal, matriarchal or hold women in higher regard than mainstream United States culture does. In Navajo culture, women and men are considered equally vital

- Torah explains why she is not a feminist—even though she was raped repeatedly by men

- Certain stories can only be told during certain seasons, in specific locations and/or within the Navajo community. In addition some stories can be retold to only medicine women and medicine men, who are the keepers of those stories

- Adzaa Nadleehi is the mother of all Navajos. She is called “Adzaa Nadleehi” because she changes age with each season

- The Navajo New Year is in the fall, to celebrate the harvest

- At least one Arizona governor had intended to build a wall that cut right though a Native reservation that spans the Arizona/Mexican border. Doing so without the Natives’ consent would have been an act of war against another nation

- What viewers, Native and non-Native alike and everywhere in the world, can do to stop the pipeline from cutting through a sovereign Native nation’s land

- The Dakota Access Pipeline is a symbolic wall of destruction and disregard to the planet and its people.

- The Pipeline endangers our drinking water and destroys our clean soil. The toxic, dangerous chemicals from building the pipeline and then also from pipeline spills go directly into our water supply and cause short- and long-term health issues, including death, to humans, wildlife and plant-life

Native tribes have no military resources to leverage against US aggression. The Natives lack military power but they still have their voice. Thanks to social media and the democratization of information, the Natives’ voices are being heard far more than they were in the past. This is an inspiration for anyone who is a trauma survivor: Your voice is your sword.

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Find Brian on Twitter: @hungrynavajo

Yeego Nitl’aa (Brian’s physical fitness video series on YouTube): www.youtube.com/user/YeegoNitLaa

For general information about the Navajo People: http://navajopeople.org

The United States Department of the Interior’s Bureau of Indian Affairs (BIA) for the US position on Native Americans: www.bia.gov/FAQs

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Part 3: Jeselle Hadley-Bacon is a chef, clean foods advocate and sexual abuse survivor. Jeselle shares the story of the first time that she disclosed her sexual assault to a group of Amish women in a confidential setting. That confidentiality was violated by one of the women, a daughter of the bishop Ben Girod. Girod then announced publicly to all the church men that “Jeselle has admitted to repeatedly fornicating and committing adultery with a married man”. Watch the episode for how this story ends.

Jeselle also talks about how her baptism into the Amish church was denied four times because the church didn’t want an outsider to join and the lengths that church members went to to deny her application for baptism (e.g., they accused her of being possessed by the devil).

Jeselle is one of the rare converts into the Amish church—but has since left. She moved to the Ovid, MI Amish community shortly after Torah escaped from that same community (Torah’s non-practicing Amish parents Henry and Ida Bontrager still live in Ovid).

Today Jeselle focuses her energy on balancing her body and life through gut health, clean foods, and positive living. She is sharing her journey as well as information, recipes and a community both locally in her home area and also via her “Healthy Jesey" Facebook page. She welcomes anyone who is interested to connect with her.

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April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month (SAAM). In solidarity with #SAAM, we place their teal ribbon on some of our content each April. Teal is the official color of SAAM. The teal ribbon is the symbol of sexual violence prevention. Please read on for more information about #SAAM and how you can help and/or be helped as a survivor.

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PSA (PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT): This is the same Ovid, Michigan community Torah escaped from but Ben Girod now lives in Idaho. Everyone reading/watching this should be warned that Ben Girod actively condones rape and is a predator.

He is a textbook sociopath/psychopath and claims to—literally—be receiving emails from God. He has resigned from the Old Order Amish church and runs a right-wing, fundamentalist, proselyting church in Idaho. He claims to be the reincarnation of Moses from the Bible. He also claims that the Amish are the “lost tribe of Israel” and he has made a trip(s) to Israel claiming to speak on behalf of all the Amish, something he has neither the right nor authority to do.

IN THIS EPISODE YOU’LL LEARN:

- How sexual abuse is handled within the Amish: it doesn’t get reported or talked about because you’re supposed to submit to those in authority (and if the perpetrator is older, which is likely, than reporting them would be deemed an act of not being submission, or being insubordinate)

“God is with you through everything” and “Look at the suffering the martyrs went through” are common responses IF a rape or any other sexual assault is brought up

- The standard response to rape is “Don’t tell anyone”. Even mothers will tell their raped and/or molested daughters that

-You need to submit and sacrifice yourself, self-sacrifice. The Amish attitude is “if our martyred ancestors were boiled alive in oil for their faith during the Protestant Reformation, then surely you can endure being raped repeatedly”.

- The Martyrs Mirror to the Amish is similar to the Lives of the Saints to the Catholics.

- The Amish mentality of suffering: the more you suffer for your faith (which includes enduring rape/sexual assault and not reporting it), the higher your chances of getting into heaven.

LINKS AND RESOURCES FOR THIS EPISODE:

Healthy Jesey (Jeselle’s clean foods startup): www.facebook.com/JeseyBs

Grief Recovery Method (for physical and emotional losses, to find grief support groups and for a free ebook for info on the various kinds of grief): www.griefrecoverymethod.com

RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network): www.rainn.org; 800-656-HOPE; live chat. Get help 24/7. Free and confidential. Call/ch