I want to be apathetic and have a small world in a bubble. But God gave me this brain (and heart). The world (and the people) I am living in right now are so overwhelming. Yet I can't get myself out of this —and worse, a part of me also wants this. How?I want to sit in the veranda of my small wooden house. Watching tiny grass dancing with tender wind, listening to natural sluice and cats purrs as the music to my ears, without knowing nor caring of what happen in the other parts of the world. Apparently, this is really hard to get?My Mam used to encourage me to learn a lot of things. She said that it takes nothing to know everything. My life proved that she was wrong. It takes a lot, Mah. You can't just enjoying life when you know things. A lot of times, even when you're sick, you have to do things just because you are the one who knows that, thus you are inevitably bear the responsibility.And it's really, really, exhausting.