I grew up “looking in” at the Church. I felt that way even when I was in the Seminary studying for the priesthood, like I didn’t really belong there. And I feel that way now that I’m ordained. It’s not the virtue of humility; it’s just what it is for me, but it shapes the way I preach to people (and speak to you hear). I’m always like Thomas in that way: the other guys see it first before me, and then I get let in to the thing later. I’ve come to understand about myself that I am a man completely dependent on second chances. My only hope for holiness (or heaven) is in second chances. And when I preach I tend to consider of first importance those in the church who may feel like they’re looking in at something from the outside and need a second chance.