There’s a kind of exhaustion that doesn’t come from work, relationships, or even trauma.It comes from trying to awaken all the time.This episode is about spiritual burnout — the subtle fatigue that builds when seeking becomes identity, when growth becomes performance, and when transcendence starts to feel like a finish line you can never quite reach.I talk about:• The addiction to epiphanies• How spiritual language can mask avoidance• The loneliness of being “the seeker”• Why stopping isn’t regression• What happens when the fever of striving finally breaksFor a long time, I believed awakening meant elevation. Ascension. A staircase upward.Now I think it looks more like returning.Returning to the body.Returning to breath.Returning to ordinary moments without decoding them.This isn’t an anti-spiritual episode. It’s just honest. Honest about how easily the search for wisdom can become another way of avoiding rest. Honest about how tenderness feels more real than transcendence.If you’ve ever felt tired of trying to be enlightened… this might feel familiar.Maybe the most spiritual thing you can do isn’t to keep climbing.Maybe it’s to let the road dissolve.—If this resonates, let me know in the comments. I lurk more than you think, mostly on Spotify, but I'm here too. And if you’re new here, welcome to Idiot Mystic — where I seem to have made it a habit to question everything, including my own spiritual ambition.