nah there is definitely something going on .  i just explain it away as possible mental illness but im not sure 

beware the thirties every year brings you closer to being old 

at this point though .. im actually pretty old.     going through this i can see how people who are only five or so years apart are definitely in different groups. i know one generation is supposedly a fifteen year span . i am not saying that should change but someone who is 5 to 10 years younger than i am , they are in a different place in life.  15 years is a pretty big age gap for a generation.  but when this all started i was closer to the age you are now.  but now i am too old 

i think i found out she identified as black a long time ago but like most people didnt want to talk about it anymore.    i think when people think of america they should think of an established society not the stuff the crazy people say that makes it in to the media.    there are a lot of people and businesses and stuff   not just one or two crazy people talking in the media.  i think you should be able to say what you want but one crazy person isnt the millions of other people 

maybe you should flag crazy people as fringe i would probably get a fringe tag 

i am not able to figure out what is wrong with race in america 

and remember o.   i dont speak a the spanish

maybe king selena and king aoc are kingz

it kind of reminds me of a tribal mentality        i literally went from saying random things online to watching  king aoc and king selena     exploit that i said "i am more white than you"     it may not even be true      but   i think a lot of you prefer aoc because she identifies as black     i am literally familiar with a time when latin american people were not part black     

 but if  you think about it       there are people that say offensive things to others all the time             and they dont have the opportunity to exploit the person        who said something offensive                             because you are famous               you had the tools to "pay me back"     

you did pay me back

for saying that i am more white than you    

i guess i would say to you that all latin people are not black 

it doesnt mean you are not latin people but maybe you dont represent  latin people if you see yourself as black first 

many many years ago online when i talked about alexandria ocasio cortez i didnt know she identified as black because she is puerto rican.  not all puerto ricans are black.   it seems to be something that defines her, that she is puerto rican but what seems to be more important is that she sees herself as black.  it seems to be her identity.  what i said to her a long time ago well i think i said something about being more white than her i actually dont remember what i said. but at the time i dont know what was going on. i didnt realize she thought of herself as a black person.  so all this time because i said something about being more white or whatever she probably held me in contempt and was walking around like telling herself "this person was telling me they are more white than i am but they dont know that i am black"  or whatever it probably was going like that through her head.  i also said something like that about another person ,i  think i said the same thing to two different people around the same time.   so there is something wrong here if what i said many years ago , they held that still in their minds as like the only thing they could think about every minute of the day. each day from several years ago they are thinking to themselves, "that girl said she was more white than me."   well yes i did say something like that but the situation was not very good. and you didnt have an explanation of what was really going on.  but its almost like if you cant stop harming someone because they said they were more white than you, im not sure.     its your inability to get past people saying things like that.  but   the thing is i didnt know at least one of you identify as black.  and the other  , the thing about latin american peopel is some of you are born with a straight nose and more preferable features, like you are more petite. which makes you look more cacuasian.  who knows maybe you are more caucasian because of that. but like, there are different caucasian ethnicities.  maybe the other person is more caucasian than i am.   i am not sure  but selena and alexandria wouldnt let it go.  because you didnt see the bigger picture. so the last few years these people have been taking their hate of what i said and probably their hate for me  and it was probably what helped them make a lot of money the last few years.    i guess i am too old?  i am more familiar with a time when not all latin american people were eclipsed by others who consider themselves part black.  somethings i said many many years ago , i dont remember but because i got caught up online i talked about aoc and selena gomez for a short bit.   that was a long time ago.  if you thought i liked you then or if you think i am sitting here thinking about you as a friend now i dont  , i didnt then either

you exploited the things that i said years ago as in took offense then turned it into a campaign  that was like "this girl said she is more white than me"  i dont even know what kind of campaign that would be 

maybe you are more white than me    but i didnt know you saw yourself as black because you are puerto rican.     

they were being hard on selena many years ago and i said something to that effect but unfortunately maybe 

this person made billions of dollars because of it   

but it is     a    lesson    in      you  never know       how much people will exploit you     

this case i am talking about these two       exploiting others     because they took offense to   something i said