i would like to tell you something. before my mother died. i visited the hispanic family that lived around the corner.  one day when i was over there i found a ring on the floor somewhere but then decided to ask the home owner if the ring was theirs. i dont remember where i found the ring, but when i asked the home owner if the ring was theirs, they said yes, and then made a big deal about it.  but for some reason, to me when i returned the ring to them, i felt like it seemed like i was trying to steal the ring but decided to return the ring instead.  i think i found it inside   but then i tried to return it and i think i said i found it outside.  so that is why it seemed dishonest.    this story appears in online a lot. i sometimes wonder why. because i dont think about that.  but maybe that family that i returned the ring to, maybe they are somewhere out there in the picture. did they disappear my animals? kill my mom? send those gang members?  

i keep thinking they are going to leave me alone but they are not

i think the non black xenials died  but the 80 years olds today are going to live until they are 160

you can only torture me so much. i am already starting to feel the fatigue

i think they did this during the recessions.   they got rid of a lot of us that way.   everyone who is up there right now  at one point spit and shat on a child of the recession 

i really think i am in a hispanic gang fight with marco rubio, selena gomez, americana people.  that kind of thing.  like just so you all know.  when i was 8 years old.  i was like,   ohhhh nooo.   i am gonna be fighting with these hispanic people cuz they are jealous of the kind of white person my mother is.  marco rubio,  you look more like, eurocentric  to me.   but i think i may actually be  more like white american than you. even though you and selena gomez look more eurocentric than i do

i am not saying i want to run for office. but i am going to tell you that in the back of my mind. i wonder if because it looked like i may have been interested in running for office back then, they came after me.   i remember i attended an event where political people were speaking. and then sometime after that all of that happened. i am really not kidding when i say i think i was being watched. and i think it may have even happened when that guy got shot by the either the antifa or the black lives matter protestors. i sometimes feel like they saw me talking to him and that is why they shot him.   it doesnt mean he was shot by an african american.  could have been anyone.   i dont have proof but it is eerie the way things like that have happened   i am trying to give you the list of events 

one of the worst fates you could suffer is being trapped by people who are obsessed with marrying up   and they use you as leverage to do so      and they turn you in to a heap of dung in the process 

they took venezuela    i really think it is kind of like the huns   and they are going to trap people 

i think a lot of people my age and like 10 to 20 years older are actually dead now