i dont think i saw her in person after that    if so it was maybe the one time i saw her at a dinner with aunt becky one time but my grandmother wouldnt really look at me and she turned her back to me and stuff.   that is what i am talking about it was a cold shoulder situation.  i think she cut me out without saying it.

i got freaked out about the visa i had when i was there and left in the middle of the night.  but i was very sad about it.  i came back to the u.s. and i am not sure why i didnt go back to china. i think maybe i ran in to trouble too soon after i got back.   i should have gone back but i was scared about the visas situation there. i even wrote an email to hovel right when i got back. i cant believe i came back to the u.s.  https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/china-rolls-out-robot-cops-in-cities-to-push-humanoid-robots-in-daily-life/vi-AA1Vi8hl?ocid=socialshare

i had to ask my grandmother for help to come back to the u.s. as in i had to ask her for money. and her response was so severe. if you could have killed someone with your voice, i think it would sound like what she sounded like when she sent me money for a plane ticket back to the u.s.   her speaking was so angry   it was the angriest i have ever heard anyone be actually   i think that beotch hated me with full force .  but she probably hated me because she took money from my mom's bank account or something when she died and didnt tell me.   

is it a traffic controlling robot.  stop taking my jobs.  im just kidding. but i would like to go back to china someday. https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/china-rolls-out-robot-cops-in-cities-to-push-humanoid-robots-in-daily-life/vi-AA1Vi8hl?ocid=socialshare

it was horrible. 

i think i knew the u.s. wasnt working out for me all the way back in 2013

if any of you want to know,  sometimes i feel like  people changed.   like some of the people i knew from before    like one time   when i saw them after a few years   when i looked at them in the eyes,  it was like dark  and stuff     not because they have brown eyes   it was like ive never seen it before  but it was like you could see a black shadow in their eyes     and then things like my grandmother sounding like steel and shit    like   i sometimes  wonder     like    are they aliens or something like   did everyone get turned in to an alien 

the sounds she made sounded like a steel  bending and wrecking something and falling on top of you

im pretty convinced kanye west is still trying to kill me.  he is coming out with an album about bullies   and i am going to guess he will be performing with the mayor  i was talking about earlier 

is it fake or something? did alex pretti not actually die. and its just that they wanted to talk about bullies with kanye west