i think they think of this movie esther. and they really only think like a girl gets to marry a rich powerful guy.    they dont understand it is a story about saving the jewish people

do you know what it means to think of yourself as esther?  it means to save the jewish people.  

some people may worry about walking through life being called the n word at every street corner.  but that is not me.   never has been.

im kind of concerned that the selena gomez everyone sees isnt the real selena gomez though. and i remember seeing a video show up a long time ago where she was wearing some dress that was a tribute to esther  like it seemed like she was saying she thought of herself like that esther character.   because of that i am concerned she was convinced to join some pluralistic marriage train several years ago and she is hiding somewhere on a compound.  but they are using a look a like  in the media  that is not actually married to benny blanco.        

 i would like to tell you that i am noticing a disconnection. i am going to use an example of walking into a business that gives tours. this is not the real setting but i am going to use this kind of business as an example.  i sign up for a tour and am standing with the people on the tour.  they are friendly and my friend.   then the tour guides come a long and think that i am very low class and they insult me to my face.  there are disconnections like this happening a lot.  sometimes i feel like the standards in the media are so unrealistic that you are like the tour guides.      but in real life there are people who are my friend. 

i guess i would tell selena gomez not to worry about the song.   people dont call me the n word in real life.   never happened until i thought i imagined it.    i did hear wetback once though. but i dont know if it was directed at me but i could overhear it. that kind of thing.  that was in washington state on a bus.  to be honest, i didnt ever hear slurs like that until maybe since 2024

when they come in the room ,  i am always like, oh look there is isis in the chat. i say that to myself. 

maybe you need to know that in discord there are users that pop up in the chats i am in and they are screaming the n word and saying it over and over. it often sounds like african american people that do that.    but they shouldnt know which chat i am in. i cant prove they are entering the room for me.   but they show up to do that then leave    it happens a lot since i shared the link

i dont really blame any person,  i think  i was supposed to be living outside of the united states since 2012   i dont mean that in a mystical way i am just saying that it was turning out to be stressful in the u.s. starting around then and i left and had a better life outside of the u.s.    that is what i mean 

but i said a long time ago that i thought kamala harris would take steps to cause, as in make it happen to, people   , because she lived through it herself.