Those of us who come to this practice, we set aside a lot of time to practice, to try to tame our brains, to try bringing ourselves with some kind of alignment with the universe and emptiness, to try to find the source of our true Buddha nature – not even knowing what it looks like, really. Sometimes struggling to let go of the forms and practices and things that we come to lean on to keep our minds tamed and in line. To make it not hurt so much.