Awaken2Now (Nothing To Figure Out)

God, as a concept, can appear to hate you as long as you project the hatred you have, perhaps routinely yet momentarily felt and observed from the very men who seem to appear to be like the God none is able to conceive of. Conceptions are deceptions. Just as saying the word ‘water’ is a horrible attempt to explain the experience of actually being wet. Even if I could freeze an ocean wave, my bringing it to you in a box and placing it on a table would not be anything like surfing in the ocean or even floundering around in a baby pool. Man, this is off the hinges!

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The Bible is blasphemous whenever it is used as caselaw and even the Word of God — which is a flat rejection of the Holy Spirit. Can’t jam Infinite Love inside any book. Not until 1850 did Protestants in Alabama suddenly demand this book be deemed inerrant. An inerrant book written by men? Even Jesús scolds in John 5:39-44 literalism and people who parochially refuse relationship with Him over “constantly having your heads in the Bible but refusing to SEE Me in front of you....” Look at what such narrowness of thinking has done (not because people always believe or love God who they CAN in a less literal sense SEE but won’t SEE) but solely because of individual cowardly narcissism just to be sure they “don’t burn in hell.” This isn’t love but terrorism. Think about it — you place a gun to the head of the preciously and infinitely loved little heads of children and tell them they better hate “certain people OR groups” and beat their children because that’s the only language they understand, and they’ll hardly become human beings capable of charity beginning at home or beginning within themselves. Rather, this same aberrant fear will actually create all manner of evil, self-preservation, self-absorbing megalomania and other highly ephemeral avarice and perversion. Christianity as the “religion” doesn’t espouse a love for and from God for ALL people — rather as merely another exclusive “religion” It unwittingly promotes living a life of fearing hell and hating this God and this threatening tyrannical caricature the church fabricated for dualistic confusion and socioeconomic control. Having said that, debating hate and love and especially the existence of God as a word and trying to force ideas on anyone will cause pushback. Until and, not if but when, a person is able to SEE and RECOGNIZE the divine in ALL PEOPLE— especially those they have been trained to hate not based on reality and truth and grace and truth — but with the very peculiarly arcane approach of actually EXCLUDING first and INCLUDING a very few individuals if anyone (which is ultimately self-banishment) as one’s life goes onto and INTO eternity. Life is living us. Things are improving. America’s history of preferring word-worship and highly superficial and spoon fed programming has created an unstable passively-aggressive kind of undulating conformity that has been largely without any lovingly lasting transformative experiencing as human beings. Forced love is at best, highly unconditional hatred. This has been proffered as stemming from the noun and conceptualized word — God, but any conceptual and airily abstract notion of God as anyone or even anything akin to an infinitely loving agent is all showroom but no storeroom. Just smoke and mirrors and a cheapened part of speech and an unbelievably unworkable textual rule book. A theologically lifeless topic and object of pseudo-scholastic discussion and debate, but sorrowfully little else. It might be becoming increasingly obvious to humanity that humanity is from love and infinite love has all the timelessness in and out of this world to restore to Her original state of sanity. Original sin, logically, demands that the originating Source of sin starts and stops this seemingly endless “missing of the point” not by creating the 16th century atonement conditions for His/Her creation to yet again fail to meet, but by This Creator having ALREADY removed the human convention (illusion) of finitely loving conditions that infinite Love would never impose on His/Her very own divine inventions. (There was nothing to remove but the damnable idea of sin and the blame gaming).

What was the problem with Jerome’s Bible? It was heavily influenced by Latin hell-inventing theologians like Tertullian and Augustine. Many of the words used in the Vulgate, such as eternal, redemption, justification, sanctification, sacrament, perdition, punish, torment, damnation, etc., were coined by Tertullian and h(continued)

Infinite love being infinite love is eternally free to free humanity from its embarrassingly absurd illusion of having ever been capable of excluding a single life (soul) with the billions of humanity’s finite conclusions. The lesser of two evils merely affords humanity the choice to choose evil — as if there has ever been or there currently are arbitrary degrees of evil coterminously existent with infinite levels of love.

Who are you? Who is the one who can die and live to speak about it? Who died and is now living within you? There could be absolutely no fear whatsoever of death if there wasn’t already within you that willingness to feel the fear even a second longer. And what possible good could fear have? Well, none that you have intellectually thought to see. You don’t see with thinking, you see with spontaneous clarity of perception — unless you’ve undergone cultural, societal, and religious programming. For you don’t think and then see. You simply see and awareness makes it so. Thinking makes everything merely conceptual. As a child you also did see but without what your mind terms thinking. You were then fully conscious. There were no airy abstractions, labels, theories or words to obstruct that one immortal sense that your reasoning relinquished and yet will recognize upon being like a child. What is the obstruction? You will know and when you do you will be willing. Surround yourself with no conclusions. God refuses to be known by the intellect but is even now known by the heart.

Has it ever occurred to you that you can only love when you are alone.

What does it mean to love?

It means to see a person, a thing, a situation, as it really is and not as you imagine it to be, and to give it the response it deserves. You cannot love what you do not even see.

And what prevents you from seeing? Your concepts, your categories, your prejudices and projections, your needs and attachments, the labels you have drawn from your conditioning and from your past experiences.

Seeing is the most arduous thing a human being can undertake. For it calls for a disciplined, alert mind, whereas most people would much rather lapse into mental laziness than take the trouble to see each person and thing anew in present moment freshness.

To drop your conditioning in order to see is arduous enough. But seeing calls for something more painful still. The dropping of the control that society exercises over you; a control whose tentacles have penetrated to the very roots of your being, so that to drop it is to tear yourself apart.

If you wish to understand this, think of a little child that is given a taste for drugs. As the drug penetrates the body of the child, it becomes addicted and its whole being cries out for the drug. To be without the drug is so unbearable a torment that it seems preferable to die.

Now this is exactly what society did to you when you were a child. You were not allowed to enjoy the solid, nutritious food of life: work and play and the company of people and the pleasures of the senses and the mind. You were given a taste for the drug called Approval, Appreciation, Attention, the drug called Success, Prestige, Power. Having got a taste for these things, you became addicted and began to dread their loss. You felt terror at the prospect of failure, of mistakes, of the criticism of others. So you became cravenly dependent on people and lost your freedom.

Think of the sad history of your efforts at self-improvement, that either ended in disaster or succeeded only at the cost of struggle and pain.

Now suppose you desisted from all efforts to change yourself, and from all self-dissatisfaction, would you then be doomed to go to sleep having passively accepted everything in you and around you?

There is another way besides laborious self-pushing on the one hand and stagnant acceptance on the other. It is the way of self-understanding. This is far from easy because to understand what you are requires complete freedom from all desire to change what you are into something else.

You will see this if you compare the attitude of a scientist who studies the habits of ants without the slightest desire to change them with the attitude of a dog trainer who studies the habits of a dog with a view to making it learn something.

If what you attempt is not to change yourself but to observe yourself, to study every one of your reactions to people and things, without judgement or condemnation or desire to reform yourself, your observation will be non-selective, comprehensive, never fixed in rigid conclusions, always open and fresh from moment to moment.

Then you will notice a marvellous thing happening within you: you will be flooded with the light of awareness, you will become transparent and transformed.

Will change occur then? Oh, yes. In you and in your surroundings.

But it will not be brought about by your cunning, restless ego that is forever competing, comparing, coercing, sermonizing, manipulating in its intolerance and its ambitions, thereby creating tension and conflict and resistance between you and Nature and exhausting, self-defeating process like driving with your brakes on.

When an archer is shooting for fun
He has all his skill.
If he shoots for a brass buckle
He is already nervous.
If he shoots for a prize of gold
He goes blind
 Or sees two targets –
He is out of his mind.

His skill has not changed,
But the prize divides him.
He cares
He thinks more of winning
Than of shooting –
And the need to win
Drains him of power.

I feel good because the world is right. Wrong.

The world is right because I feel good.

What? I am here to be love not to become lovable. The truth makes one free and then hated by everyone who cannot accept this one’s breaking away from this need to be needed, this craving to be craved, this seeking of approval that cannot find peace. An infant is lovable until it cries too much. How does an infant cry too much? It cries and laughs because it is what it is. Only when brainwashed adults tell the baby and child that because they don’t like the feelings within themselves (but they’re so unaware they cannot see this), that the baby or child is responsible for the adults negative emotions. It’s like going to the doctor, explaining your emotional problems and then the doctor writing a prescription for the next door neighbor. The same rain that produces weeds in thickets produces roses in the garden. A rose remains a rose regardless of being called something else by using another name. Don’t mistake LOVED for condition. Nor NEEDED for addiction. Nor BLESSED for a historical one time miracle. The rain that disturbs a picnic doesn’t disturb a picnic but only my programming that the picnic should have been without rain. Do you see this? Whether you can or cannot, there’s nothing to SCREAM at.

Keep it simple.

Who's this guy know as yourself who's doing the understanding? You say you understand who Jesus the Christ is but you don't know Christ isn't Jesus's last name? Peter found out when Jesus asked, "Who do you say that I Am?" Peter's answer didn't arise within him from asking Pastors or studying scriptures. Because Peter knew Jesus's love towards him wasn't contingent upon Peter's past denials (x 2) while warming his hands by the fire, Peter didn't fear mercy nor a comforting fire. Wasn't about guilty pleas and incidentals. Jesus saw that coming. Imagine that. Can I make superstition less religiously embraceable? And can I make the supernatural more normal? "Born again" isn't nearly as much an emotional Jesus experience with arms failing and wheelchairs rolling and people pew hopping as we think. And if honest, it's embarrassing. Unlearn like children did by having yet learned that more is ludicrous by become like children. Jesus said something like this. Why? Unlearn the very religious dogmas that Jesus crucified and thus, Jesus now the Christ needs no middle management to distort. Holy Spirit. Not freaky stuff. Intuitive is more like this gift that even pre-baptism people had. Understand who you are. Guilty tripping aside, go silent, not introverted. Drop useless thoughts as you observe them. Weed the religious weeds. Now truth outside the Bible is able and willing to be the freedom that makes you free.

I’ll never see her again.

Untrue.

But she’s dead now!

Were you dead before you were born?

No. I just hadn’t been born yet.

Does a baby see love or experience love or both?

Both, if the baby isn’t born blind.

What about all of the babies who are born blind?

Well, it’s not these baby’s fault they can’t see the people who love them?

And neither are these baby’s at fault because they cannot hate the people we see as a statically and historically sort of noun. We can fanaticize for good or for ill about images only looked at but not seen through. We don’t love memories of images. We love the real-time experiences of the unseen soul who emanated then and emanates now unconditional acceptance.

The person mirrored this acceptance once because we were open to acceptance. Picture frames promote illusions. In the nature of objects we often speak of such buildings, homes, cars and fences as being things that will be ‘here’ long after we’re dead and gone. But it’s a peculiar realization once see a that no human being was ever or is ever a time piece subject to rusting and eventual ruin. That’s the business of chronological time and chronological time is a pattern and thus, capable of observational inventiveness. Chronological time pieces value little everything that they supposedly are able to measure. Especially people. A person who mirrors even once his or her peace within real-time back to you (and there is no other sort of time) can’t lose what you are and you can’t lose who they are. Peace is a universal truth. All experience it in real-time and reality isn’t historically hemmed in or logically challenged. Whoever lives in real-time knows nothing of unreal time and the only “time” that is unreal is time perceived as sheerly nostalgia. But there’s a more absurd illusion that isn’t fit to be termed time by any stretch of consciousness. This is the nonexistent future. And, if honest, many of us would admit we perceive God as object of superstition, a part of speech. Not part of nature much less a real-time verb. What else is being itself but real-time. Often we must get rid of God as we cannot even ascribe meaning to God (but some say they understand God as a noun and they are generally atheists, theologians, unconverted parochial priests, pastors or corpses. As Saint Anomie or the Cross stated, “God refuses to be known by the mind. A heart bent towards heaven has a mind that’s not its own. It offers permanence by the heart’s humility for soul union. This is not too much to ask. Not to ask of such is timidity regardless of what reasons the intellect’s final defence is for testing spirits. Take the exam. You will not fail.”

Our life is a dream. We are asleep. But once in awhile we wake up enough to know we are dreaming. We wake up to the “I” in which the dream is occurring.

The ‘I’ isn’t your selfie. It is your true self but in which this “body-mind” as a process is a selfie. It cannot be frozen as we imagine perhaps God as a noun. At which point God becomes so familiarly a sheer topic of discussion (especially within religious inner circles), this airy abstraction we call God is only a part of our overly wordy speech. And, of course, whenever anyone prematurely concludes (through societally acceptable religious programming) God to another heady topic among other topics associated with scholastic study, this person’s chief reason for seeking God has been reduced to “the study of the nature of God and religious belief.” God is not only a noun but static sort of archeological coursework whose existence serves as an academic elective towards a person’s completing their academic outcomes.

Because we have been told that God is changeless within the bible, we never consider the enormous frustrations we have about ourselves in constantly defending our resistance for change or else we hate ourselves for being incapable or too slow an object that we want to change. And there are large numbers of references especially within the Old Testament that associate the Rock with God. Such as, “God is my rock and salvation.” This is very insidious and we rarely recognize how we associate a benign word like rock with what, perhaps deep down, we cannot make any lovably relational sense with as connected God as a changeless tyrant. Please stop and put space around what how you’ve learned to associate one word with another. If, in fact but from fear, many of us look at God as a changeless rock in outer space as well as an indifferent observer or even a hostile judge, what will we most readily attempt to do, rather than be? We will desire to come to conditional conclusions about God that will not change as long as we don’t change and comply behaviorally. Now, we have created ourselves into no less an unlovable object as we have parochially concluded God to be as the rock theologians feel safe with as long as they can detain Him inside a manual. This is unworkable and equally as absurd. How often have you said or heard said, “God never went anywhere and He never changed. You did.”

And, if honest, we feel tremendous guilt and shame because we moved away from God and because we changed moods or behaviors. But isn’t this what Jesus asked us to do? To repent? Not behavior, but our minds but not as a conclusion about the noun God and the noun Jesus as bound inside a Bible. Jesus made this very clear.

The wind blows where it wants to, and you hear its sound, but do not know where it comes from and where it is going. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit. -Jesus

Do NOT get hung up on quotes. I purposefully avoided using quotes on what Jesus says above and now. If it is true, it is true. Doesn’t matter who said it and when it was said. You can discern it as self-evident truth only in this now.