I’m healing in the same place that hurt me and it’s not easy. But I broke the silence, stood up for my right to take up space, and shared the messy aftermath. This next chapter is coming. I’m scared. I’m ready. I’m going

Today I broke a major chain: denial. For the first time, I bought groceries without shame. I’m learning cravings aren’t weakness and silence isn’t strength. I spoke truths I once buried. I see injustice more clearly now, and I refuse to stay quiet

I did everything I could by praying, visualizing and showing up but the call never came. So I let go. This episode is a soft landing into grief, faith, and fumes of hope. I’m not giving up. Just breathing, believing, and breaking the cycle. I love you

Today is a raw, vulnerable reflection on grief, hope, and desire for a breakthrough. I share a spiritual prayer for comfort, a personal story about manifesting a giveaway win, and a deep longing for tangible relief.

I recorded a 2.5 hour touch meditation that was slow, instinctual, and healing. Thank you God, my bank account flipped from negative to positive, I bought a Coke for my grandparents in heaven, and I named June’s theme: You’re the One. Because it starts with me. Always has.

Today was not easy. I didn’t fight back, I froze. Dissociated. Forgot to breathe. But even in that silence, something in me refused to disappear. I’m not here to be Jesus. I’m Ayla. And somehow, I’m still the bearer of light. Even when it flickers and maybe especially so.

Today I stood my ground. I told my brother I won’t force a relationship where I’m not welcome. It hurt but it was healing. I’m learning to let go without needing to be forgiven. And honestly? Listening is a big deal. Thank you

Today marks Day 55 and my quiet reveal: I finally told the world I have a podcast. After 327 episodes and 3 years of audio healing, I’m learning to share my voice unmasked. I love you, thank you you for being here and thank you for listening.

I tried to push through exhaustion but my body said no. Today unraveled with workouts cut short, family stress, and unmet goals. I cried, paused, prayed, and remembered I’m human. Healing isn’t just doing, it’s resting too. So tonight, I’m breathing and believing again.

I rested today and soaked in the symbolism of water: liquid prayer, soft release. I drank more, nourished more, and trusted more. My bank account turned positive, my spirit steadied, and I even defended lemon water online. I’m healing, hydrating, and choosing peace.